Kate's Story

Draw Near...

2012-01-14T08:18:00.005-06:00

I have been reading the book, Draw Near by Sherry Blankenship lately. With laughter & tears it has been good on many fronts. A quote I would like to share that touched my heart (many did)... "God promises that if we truly love Him, He will cause even the most terrible things in our lives to somehow be used for good." In reference to Romans 8:28 - And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him, to those who are called according to His purpose.

March MRI is Thursday the 8th at 9:30
Follow up doctor appointment is Friday at 9:30. Will I go another 6 months or will he suggest a year till next scan / appointment?

I have so enjoyed seeing the birds outside my kitchen window sitting on the tree branch all puffed up & then eat their seed in the feeder. God thank you for your beautiful creation & giving us white snow as the backdrop.

Have a restful weekend,
Kate

September 2011 MRI results

2011-09-12T10:33:00.001-05:00

Clear is the word for my September MRI scan! I am to return in 6 months for another scan including blood work - March 2012. Speaking of blood work I did have some mishap on Friday regarding my calcium which had nothing to do with cancer (he clarified) but the oncologist was concerned enough for me to do another work up. It ended up being a typo. Thankfully, because he mentioned seeing an endocrinologist if it was still a low number. All in all March is on the horizon for my next step in this journey. I have been asked if there will be a time when they will consider me cancer free & my answer is I do not know. Not sure if they go by years like insurance companies. Really, I have gotten used to the idea of not knowing what comes next.

On the home front the boys are enjoying their sports. Stuart & Cole soccer. Cole asked to play baseball this fall as he took a break during the summer. He enjoys having Dad as his fall ball coach. Carter is on another fall ball team and ready to start 7th grade football (games have yet to begin). Best part of Carter playing middle school football is that practice is during the school day. Love this idea!

Enjoy your autumn days,
Kate

just wanted to let you know

2011-09-05T09:48:00.002-05:00

I had no idea what to title this one as it has been on my heart to let others know that I am weak. Yes, that is a good thing to be reminded of as Christians. He is strong and I am not.

I have consulted with others regarding my concern with the upcoming MRI. The extreme loudness of the new scan was almost more than I could bear last time. A patient normally has ear plugs & ear phones covering their ears due to the noise. In February that was not the case. The new machine (which is supposed to be faster - not that I could tell) does not allow for the brain scan patient to have ear phones as the cage placed over the head does not fit the ear phones. Yes, making for a LOUD experience. I did tell my oncologist at the last appointment that if I don't die of cancer I will have hearing loss. A long story summarizing that I have asked for some meds to help calm me during the scan. That was a hard decision to make. Not sure if it was my pride in knowing I used to be able to pray & sleep /relax at times long ago. Anyway, just wanted all to know I am taking medication to help calm me for Wednesday.

Please pray for a clear scan. I see Dr. Needles Friday, September 9 with results.

k-

4 weeks till Sept MRI

2011-08-10T16:55:00.002-05:00

Today is Wednesday, August 10 and it marks 4 weeks till my next MRI. The previous scan in February was extremely LOUD and bothersome (more than usual). Laying for 40 minutes was difficult then and I cannot imagine what it will be like September 7.

Not sure what the oncologist will suggest at my follow up appointment Friday, September 9.

chat later,

k-

February happy dance!

2011-02-25T10:38:00.002-06:00

MRI results are clear! No change. The oncologist was pleased as so was I. He did ask how was my memory lately. He is watching for radiation side effects to the brain - cognitive, concentration, etc. Dave & those around me will need to be watchful to see if they recognize these. The doctor said he is not too concerned just yet.

I will have my next MRI in 6 months (+ a few weeks). I scheduled it for September to ensure the boys will be in school.

Happy Dance Kate

February testing

2011-01-21T08:32:00.002-06:00

My next tests...
MRI & Blood work - Wednesday, February 23

Oncologist follow up -Friday, February 25
If it is a clear report will I go another 6 months? I am unsure of what the doctor will say.

Thankful days 2010

2010-11-22T13:31:00.002-06:00

Hello there. Busy days lately which I am most thankful. Little Stuart is not so little as he just had his 6 year birthday kid party this past Saturday the 20th. Much chaos! Carter, Cole & Stuart are doing well in school and basketball will be keeping us on our toes as ALL will be playing. Dave of course is coaching. Cole's team are the ones who get Coach Snodgrass. It is a delight to my heart to see him so active in their lives. As for me, I am working two mornings a week as a Bible study children teacher. I also have the joy of studying the book of Acts through CBS Community Bible Study!

As Thanksgiving is this Thursday. It brings me to contemplate the past few years of my cancer journey. As most I have a lot to be thankful for. Many blessings abound! No matter if it is Thanksgiving time when you read this ... I would love to hear what YOU are thankful for.

February is my next MRI & blood work. Update will be around that time.

Choosing To SEE: A Journey of Struggle and Hope

2010-09-15T16:40:00.003-05:00

On May 21, 2008, Maria Chapman age 5 had been playing outside with her sisters, Shaohannah, 8, and Stevey Joy, also 5. Maria wanted to hang from the monkey bars on their playground, but wasn’t tall enough to reach them on her own. When she saw her big brother Will, then 17, steering down the driveway, she darted off to meet him and ask for his help. Will never saw her coming, and fatally struck his sister with the car.

Mother Mary Beth Chapman says more than 2 years later as she has written a book. “I can say now that God is good when things are really, really bad,” Chapman said. “But I couldn’t say it when (Maria died) because he hadn’t showed me the journey. (I had to figure out what I could say) that would also encourage people, and maybe they could start seeing their own life in the book."

Choosing To SEE: A Journey of Struggle and Hope

What Mary Beth put into words blessed my heart. It was something I had been attempting to say. I have not read the book but thought the quote was so personal. I want to steal her quote for my own (with my input in the quote):

“I can say now that God is good when things are really bad,” Chapman said & so does Kate. “But I couldn’t say it when (2006 & 2007 cancer journey was intense) because he hadn’t showed me the journey.

Much love to all today,
Kate

August MRI report finding

2010-08-20T10:27:00.002-05:00

All's good. WHAT AM I SAYING... All is GREAT! Clear is the word. Next MRI & see the oncologist in 6 months - February 2011.

Thanks for praying,
Kate

MRI date change + summer pics

2010-08-04T10:41:00.006-05:00

My MRI with blood work has been changed to Tuesday, August 17 at 9:00.

The doctor appointment is still on Friday, August 20 at 9:30. As stated in a previous post... when the scan proves clear I will go 6 months till the next MRI. I will try & make time to post an update on the weekend.

Summer is coming to a close all too quickly. Below are some pics of the fun we have enjoyed.

Stuart beaver dance with goggles
(he keeps us laughing)

Cole ready in the pit Carter taking time to contemplate
(this is a common pose for him lately)
Carter rock climbing ready to laser tag Cole rock climbing Cole's bug he caught
(he wants to be an entomologist)
Snodgrass boys at the zoo
(Stu was the first to ask for a pic)

A young one in disguise
(he goes into grocery store & says no one knows who I am)
ha ha ha

2010-07-19T14:27:00.003-05:00

It was last week when I actually made my August MRI appt. It is scheduled for Wednesday, August 18 at 9 am. Bloodwork will be taken as well.

My oncologist appt is 2 days later on that Friday, August 20 at 9:30. If the above MRI proves clear I was told in April he will have me go 6 months till the next one.

Summer time is sure flying by. Sorry for not posting as much. I have been thinking about possibly doing a web care page where one can sign up for updates. I have a few friends with cancer that have one and I receive an email telling when they have updated. It is great! (not their cancer but their care page - better make that clear) Time is precious.

Chat later,
Kate

God's Providence

2010-04-28T06:48:00.002-05:00

"Believing ahead of time what can only be seen by looking back."
Philip Yancey definition of faith

k-

Couldn't be...

2010-04-16T16:27:00.001-05:00

The results from Monday's MRI...
The doctor read it and stated to us that he "couldn't be more pleased." No change has been noted from the December MRI. My blood work looks good as well. He especially was pleased to see that a certain radiologist read the scan. He is a good one to be reading your scans (per Dr. Needles) as he will pick out anything that looks suspicious.
Dr. Needles also said we will go another 4 months till I have another scan & see him. August is the month. Friday, August 20 is my next doctor's appt & a MRI will be scheduled a few days before. Blood work will be done at that time as well. He checks it to look at post chemo stuff. Did you realize that it has been over a year since I had chemo? Dr. Needles mentioned it today. Time flies!

Dave & I were able to have a lunch date. His birthday is on Sunday. It was nice to spend some one on one time with him. Dessert later was heavy on the stomach. One word. Ted Drewes. No complaints - love the dutch chocolate!

I am thanking God for a great report. Join me. He is the One who has made this day possible.

kate

April forgetfulness

2010-04-09T16:33:00.003-05:00

It has been some time since I last posted. After coming home from Bible study on Wednesday I realized I forgot to ask for prayer regarding Mondays MRI. It was no where on my mind regarding Monday. I know the importance of prayer. Powerful! I have included a picture from Easter a few weeks ago. We could not have asked for better weather. Enjoy

April news!

2010-03-01T16:56:00.003-06:00

After many people asking me about what is going on regarding my care, I just scheduled my MRI a few minutes ago for April the following is what is on the calendar concerning cancer appointments.

My three month MRI follow up is scheduled for Monday, April 12 at 9:45 am.
The doctors appointment with results is Friday, April 16 at 9:30 am.

Blood work will be taken along with the MRI. I usually am okay with waiting for the MRI results. It is hard to believe but I usually forget about the doctors appointment. My days are so filled with home stuff that cancer items are usually pushed aside. Days fly by along with time. The following scripture has been most meaningful to me lately.

Psalm 121 ¹ I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

² My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

³ He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

⁴ indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

⁵ The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

⁶ the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

⁷ The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

⁸ the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

I am and continue to be in good Hands...

kate

Meaningful memory verses +

2010-01-23T10:19:00.006-06:00

I have been looking into scripture verses that were meaningful to me during the trials of 2006, 2007 and beyond.

... Lord there is no one like you to help the powerless against the mighty...
2 Chronicles 14:11a

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. Isaiah 43:2

The Lord hears the needy and does not despise his captive people. Psalm 69:33

... Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord you God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1 :9b

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³ he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴ Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

An excerpt from a song + meaningful quote:

...Here I am at your feet in my brokenness complete...

"I'm not going to miss out on this, Today won't come back. Once I say good night to these girls, this day is a wrap - this moment, gone."
Robert Beeson, single dad to 3 tween girls

It mentions making every moment count with your kids and I needed that reminder these days as I am a easily frustrated parent. My patience runs thin and I don't like it. I have to make a conscious effort in leaning on the Lord for encouragement it also helps having Godly encouragement from friends. Accountability.

Hope your day is going well. Next MRI is in April.
kate

Joseph M Bennett

2009-12-19T17:50:00.008-06:00

I had a hard time thinking on how to write this to my friends on the blog. This has taken me days to ponder.

On Tuesday, December 15 my friend Joe Bennett passed away. Many posts in the past were written about Joe. Please see previous archive posts. More specifically...

2006 - December 29 - first meeting him* *
2007 - January 11 - how he coined me- peacoat Kate
August 9 - blessing him with birthday cards idea
August 16 - birthday card update
August 26 - update on his 1st lung cancer

Meeting Joe in the radiation waiting area of Siteman in December 2006 was a unexpected friendship journey. We would chat often & looked forward to radiation treatments (for what you could look forward to) from that point on. Our conversations were of interesting family stories. After finishing radiation in February 2007, we kept in contact through phone conversations and sometimes lunches (when he had St Louis doctor checkups). In August 2007, he ended up with lung cancer after his 2006 ear drum cancer and was given radiation to the lungs. This fall his lung cancer returned a second time full force. His lymph nodes were affected & enlarged, almost closing off his esophagus. He decided along with his family to not do any more treatment due to his age and already had gone through enough treatment. Joe was given 2 months to live without any treatment. The past few weeks he was at a local nursing home (his kids felt it best to have him closer to them in St. Louis). We had a good time talking in person the Monday before Thanksgiving. Joe was in good spirits.

This morning was his visitation and funeral it was good to visit with his children. His burial at Jefferson Barracks with full military honors is Monday at 1pm. The boys and I will most likely attend.

My heart is sad for I lost a friend this week. I do not regret getting to know Joesph M. Bennett. My life is fuller for it. He was a courageous kindhearted man.

I will miss you Joe.
Your friend,
Peacoat Kate

Cutting the tree pics...

2009-12-17T08:46:00.005-06:00

Snodgrass clan 2009

Stuart wanting to help in some way.
The older boys helped by sawing part of the tree

I am working on a post regarding my friend, Joe and truly hope you've enjoyed these pics as much as I do.

kate

December MRI report...

2009-12-11T13:17:00.003-06:00

Oncologist, Dr. Needles says everything looks "perfect". No change from previous scans. Bloodwork also good. "You're looking great." I say so I know. (jk not really) I am to go 4 months till my next MRI & bloodwork. He gets bloodwork since being on chemo for a long time not long ago. He likes to look at all aspects of my treatment. No complaints except the needle sticking part but, since it isn't monthly it is bearable. Whoa! I just got on a tangent...

I am thankful for God's mercy. Please pray I stay faithful in God's will for my life. To listen, obey, & follow.

Amazing love that HE came as a child to save us from our sins. May your Christmas be Christ filled.

Tomorrow we cut down our Christmas tree. The boys are way excited about decorating our home for Christmas.

Off to rest before picking up the older boys from school.

Upcoming MRI

2009-12-04T17:21:00.001-06:00

The following are the upcoming cancer related items in my life:

Wednesday, December 9 = MRI
Friday, December 11 = oncologist report on the MRI

Please pray for a clear scan and peace throughout the week.
Thank you and sorry this is so short of a post...

Much love,
kate

Strength for the weary

2009-11-21T07:56:00.002-06:00

I love this verse... May it be an encouragement to you...
kate

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:29 -31

December is approaching...

2009-11-18T17:44:00.004-06:00

Happy fall to you and your loved ones. The boys have had fun playing their respective sports. We will be finished officially this weekend with soccer. Lovely rainouts made for busy weekends. Basketball is on the rise with both older boys.

Stuart has been counting the days since October when his 5th birthday will come. We are happy to report... ONLY 2 MORE DAYS - That's right, Friday is the day! Woo Hoo. I am so thankful to be here celebrating his birthday. He is a joy.

I just scheduled my December MRI for Wednesday, the 9th at 9:45. It has been 3 months since my last scan. If this one proves clear the oncologist stated we will go 4 months. Please pray for a clear scan.

In October I experienced severe head & eyeball pain similar to a migraine. I'm not sure what was the cause. Just thankful it didn't reoccur. If so, the doctor would have most definitely been informed. ER could have been an option. Thank goodness for OTC pain meds.

My VERY FAVORITE holiday is just around the corner - Thanksgiving.
Chat later,
kate

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:9

Fall 2009 Favorites

2009-10-31T08:55:00.005-05:00

He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.

Colossians 1:17

Thus far these are the pictures I love this fall. Cole playing soccer should be in these pics but he has had so many rain outs that we are playing into mid November. Ugh, cold games. I did bring my camera one game but lightning & loads of rain came so quickly it was canceled for good reason.

Cole's creation on a day off from school.

Dinosaurs helping army men defeat playmobil men.

Stuart ready to play soccer.
Carter participated in a punt / pass competition at a local school

and won 1st place overall 5th grade boys.Dave & I went to California in October. Beautiful scenery.

Hope you are well this fall. See you soon and Happy Thanksgiving in November. Lots to be thankful for this fall.

kate

And a half...

2009-09-11T13:26:00.006-05:00

Sorry for the delay in keeping you up to date today. After picking up Stuart we played at the park (a promise needing to be kept), made lunch, mop sticky kitchen floor from morning spill - now here to the computer. Normal house stuff with kids.

Okay on to today's update from the oncologist, Dr. Needles. It was three months ago from my last MRI. Today the report showed no change. The next scan will be in three months. If that one is great we will go to four months after December. Do I hear some sighs of relief? I have been wanting to ask the doctor if I would ever be considered being in remission. Dave asked for me per my request. The doctors reply "Remission? You are better than remission." "Remission implies evidence of tumors. You have no evidence of active cancer." As I type this I am amazed at God's hand in my life during this journey. He is faithful. I am humbled as I am not.

Prior to seeing Dr. Needles I get a weigh in and blood pressure check along with temperature - normal stuff. The question of "Do you have any pain today?" is asked. I say no slowly while being weighed then change jokingly to "Well, yes after this discovery." Ugh! She was kind to say it is ___ and a half. Okay she could of said the extra one pound but didn't. I was grateful in a silly way. Half pound does that count on the charts?

Another answer to prayer was during my MRI on Wednesday. Many were praying for peace that passes all understanding. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 I fell asleep or something during the actual scan as the time FLEW. MRI scans are obnoxiously LOUD - banging, knocking, clicking, etc.

Off to be a soccer mom this weekend along with basketball & fall ball. Life is good. I need one of those bumper stickers and shirts but they are costly (at least the shirts are).

Thank you for praying. I cannot thank you enough. And a half we go...
Kate

September MRI

2009-09-08T13:45:00.001-05:00

Not much to say but please pray for a clear scan. As most of you remember, the past few years it was in the fall where changes have been noticed. Fear has crept in my thoughts concerning this scan.

Wednesday, September 9 - MRI (last one was in June)
Friday, September 11 - doctor appointment with results

thanks,
k-

Back 2 School Boys 2009

2009-08-29T17:38:00.003-05:00

Cole 4th grade, Carter 5th grade

Stuart Pre K

School started this past week. I just now had the time to post pictures. Our home is in full swing with fall activities. Bible study starts soon for me. It was a difficult decision deciding which one to do on which day. I am so thankful for the options.

Cancer stuff:
Wednesday, September 9 - MRI (last one was in June)
Friday, September 11 - doctor appointment with results

* clear scan is the desire of our hearts

Have a great rest of the week!
k-

Summer is a blur

2009-08-17T16:15:00.001-05:00

Summer already seems like a blur. The boys start school Wednesday, August 26. Are they ready? I say yes! Carter & Cole say no. Stuart is excited about seeing his friends (as I think they all are). Every time I think about a blog post my time has been too precious to sit at the computer (not that I don't want prayer) as the boys are needing much attention. I do need a daily rest time still of about an hour so.

My next MRI is scheduled for Wednesday, September 9 at 9:45. The results will be known on Friday, September 11 at my doctors appointment. How am I feeling? Well, is my best response. Cannot complain. ...God is my strength and my portion... Psalm 73:26

Sorry for the lack of updates as I was busy being a mom for the summer. Also facebook has allowed me to do daily one sentence updates when possible.

kate

All Clear!

2009-06-09T11:22:00.001-05:00

The June MRI shows no change. I will have my next MRI in 3 months before my oncologist appointment on September 11. No blood work will have to be done. Like that. Actually, I like ALL OF IT! Dr. Needles was in a cheery mood today. After I asked what is to be done from here? He wanted / thought he would be getting more questions from me. I just said "Haven't I asked enough? I actually am just glad to not see you in three months." He laughed and jokingly said I hurt his feelings. Boo hoo, go on to your next patient.

Thinking about celebrating at the zoo with the boys tomorrow to see the new stingray exhibit.

Thank you for going on this journey with me,
k-

Cancerland

2009-06-07T22:39:00.002-05:00

The title is a little off but, I couldn't think of what to call this one...

Today my church cancer support group met. We meet on the first Sunday of the month. Everyone has different cancers yet similar struggles & trials. Some spouses also come to the meeting. It is great encouragement.

Yes, my MRI along with blood work were on Saturday. Tuesday the results will be made known by my oncologist, Dr. Needles. (on a side note: every time I write Needles, I chuckle and think it is quite odd to have a doctor with that sort of name-aghhh. Ok, on to the post...) That will hopefully be the time I will know how he (you know who) wants to proceed with my care post chemo. Scans every 3 months? is my guess. Blood work was taken during chemo to monitor the WBC. Brain cancers do not unfortunately exhibit "markers". Scans are the most informative. I will try to post the information as time allows after Tuesday. Our prayer is that it is clear - no change from previous scans.

I have been enjoying summer with the boys. We have gone twice to the library and only once to the pool due to weather. My fatigue is getting somewhat better. I am tired mid day but I have always been that way. Brain cancer did not bring that on. I have to rest for about 20 minutes after lunch. Stuart is slowing cutting out his quiet time which is making some days difficult. On those days, Dave (to no surprise) has been great to help so much at night when I am oh so tired and want to expire by 8pm. Please pray for his stamina & energy as he is doing double time.

This past weekend was a bustle. Carter's 11th birthday celebration was at Nascar speed park on Friday with friends. Lazer tag, go carts and cookie cake you cannot go wrong. Last night Dave & I hosted some of my moms friends for dinner to surprise & celebrate her 60th birthday which is mid June. It was great!
Thanks for checking in,

k-

Schools Out!

2009-05-22T07:00:00.002-05:00

Today is the last day of school. Summer here we come. Stuart's last day was yesterday. He was trying to understand why he won't be returning next week. At dinner he was given a lengthy "four year terminology" explanation for him to hopefully understand. Carter and Cole are so ready for summer. Mom... I am not so sure. It will be a summer of pool, library, pool, library, family trip to Indiana for Dave's high school reunion, outside fun, pool, library (you get the picture). Gotta keep them engaged. Carter is attending a summer camp in Illinois for approximately 5 days in late July. Cole is not interested in any way possible leaving home. He is my home body which is just fine with me.

Need to make breakfast, I'm taking the boys to school. Busy morning!

Quiet Day

2009-05-16T16:29:00.002-05:00

Just wanting to check in to say hello to you and hope your day was one of quietness.

Today has been one of rest for me. The heavy rains last night gave way to canceled ball games for today. Although, Cole had team pics early this morning. Thankfully, I was able to plant my flowers this afternoon. More to go for my back patio containers. Are you not amazed to see the beautiful colors God allows us to enjoy in creation?

Carter & I took the time this afternoon to plan his 11th birthday. Whoa. Eleven years in early June. I am happy to be here to enjoy his upcoming day.

Thank you for praying continually for my evening energy and the upcoming June cancer stuff. On the MRI - Need a "no change" report. I really desire to know how the doctor will proceed from here since I haven't been on chemo since March. Scans / blood work every X months? What is to come... ???

kate

Evening Umph

2009-05-12T21:49:00.001-05:00

We recently returned from our vacation. It was great being able to spend good family time together without any schedule to adhere to. The boys love our tradition of going to a local ice cream hot spot, Royal Scoop. We went four times during the week. Yes, even before our meals. Vacation is great! Dave and I also celebrated our 13 years of marriage on May 4 while in Florida. Looking forward to year 14 with him. I am blessed.
Lately I have needed some extra energy during the evening hours. Umph is desired. I really tucker out by 7:30. If it is a good day 8:02 pm. I thought :02 sounded good. ;) ; ) :)

June is fast approaching so here are some prayerful dates for you.

Saturday, June 6 is my MRI & bloodwork
Tuesday, June 9 see oncologist with results

kate

The Lords love

2009-04-27T12:21:00.002-05:00

Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22 - 23

Easter & Stu zoo date

2009-04-20T19:13:00.001-05:00

Easter 2009

Stu at the zoo with mom

Time does fly!

Easter visitors.... baseball...Zoo days (when the weather is NOT raining)

Last Friday, Stuart & I ventured to the zoo. He was elated once there. Stu has been neglected in the excursions (like I did with the older ones). I often went on "field trips" with Carter & Cole to expand their horizons. My computer is not allowing me to crop pictures so you got the real deal above.

Cancer update: Saturday, June 6 - MRI & blood work taken
Tuesday, June 9 - oncology appointment - results given

A great quote...

No place the will of God can take you that the grace of God cannot sustain you.
Corrie ten Boom

Hope your spring is going well,
k-

Life

2009-04-06T09:48:00.001-05:00

I have been thinking about if & how I will continue with the blog.

I want it to be intentional so all know that there is life with brain cancer. A new life. Since having the cancer diagnosis our family has gone through continual adjustments.

I will do my best as family time allows to blog post. Thank you for your patience.

A friend recently asked how she could continue to pray...
1. Energy for me - I am attempting to not nap as much. Also I am walking 3x during the week. Dave thinks it is two miles. We will see. All I know it has been a long winter. Need good weather.
2. Time Management in the house
3. Great family togetherness

CANCER INFORMATION: June will be my next MRI & bloodwork before the June 9 oncology appointment.

k-

Ciao, Adios, etc...

2009-03-18T18:29:00.002-05:00

Today was a rough one. I had wanted to give you a meaningful update but could not due to extreme fatigue. I over did it yesterDAY. After helping at school in the afternoon I was wiped out. Today was the absolute worst day after being on chemo. Oh well... on to the post. It is a little choppy. Bear with my thoughts... chemo brain.

Saying goodbye to chemo doesn't mean goodbye to the cancer fight. I mentioned not long ago that I was somewhat of mixed emotions ending the chemo. Yes, excited but also weary of what is to come. I was totally reminded (I am a slow learner) of God never leaving my side no matter what is to come in the months ahead. Fear did grip me last week.
'Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'
Isaiah 41:10

It is a reminder that being off chemo, Temodar is one step closer to being known as "in remission". This is another branch in my journey of brain cancer. I am confident He will carry me through. A little fearful but glad, so so glad He is with me.

"I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. John 15:5

Thank you for all YOU did in the past years. I am humbled by the hands of Jesus through you. Prayer, meals, notes/emails of encouragement, watching children, carpool, prayer, friendship, a listening ear and prayer, are a portion of your love to me and my family. I am loved. You are loved.

kate

The VERY LAST DAY!

2009-03-17T11:49:00.000-05:00

TONIGHT
IS
MY
LAST
NIGHT
OF
CHEMO!!!!

DID YOU HEAR?
LAST NIGHT!

This month it has been tolerable.
Chat later.
k-

More News

2009-03-13T09:55:00.002-05:00

The March 2009 MRI compared to March 2008 showed no change!

Last chemo cycle starts tonight & runs through Tuesday.
Cole's birthday sleepover is tonight as well.

k-

Cautiously Elated

2009-03-10T12:38:00.002-05:00

Todays oncology visit proved to be one of mixed emotions. Many changes are occuring in the next few months. I am cautiously elated. Cannot explain any further than the following.

The March MRI scan was "Couldn't ask for a better report." After questioning the doctor about the comparison date (not to rain on my parade) of December 08. He agreed it needed to be compared to a later date like March 08 (1 year). He doesn't have any concerns. Ishould hear from him sometime about the new comparison. So in turn that leads me to the chemo update. SHOCKER!

My eyes probably popped out of my head when Dr. Needles questioned the duration of my chemo. One year in January. He said he would like for me to discontinue the chemo after March due to studies that show it is not more beneficial to stay on it longer. Dave asked if Temodar is a option if there was a possible cancer reoccurrence. The doctor said oh yes, but first a biopsy would need to be performed. (Okay boys - lets not talk about cancer returning here!)

In short:
No more monthly bloodwork, chemo stops after March.
Next MRI & bloodwork is in June along with a doctors appointment.

Earlier this morning I was reminded of the following Bible verse prior to my appointment. God ordains my days. All news is up to Him and Him alone.

This is the day which the LORD has made;

Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Psalm 118:24

Another good verse

I will rejoice and be glad in Your loving kindness, Because You have seen my affliction; You have known the troubles of my soul,

Psalm 31:7

Carter's turn... & Tuesday

2009-03-09T09:32:00.001-05:00

Carter has had a fever and other symptoms for most of the weekend and did not go to school today. At least Carter is the last child to get the flu like virus in our family. Stuart is better.

Tomorrow is my oncologist appointment in the morning. I will know my MRI results from last Thursday.

k-

Tis the season

2009-03-05T13:33:00.002-06:00

It is flu season at our home. After a visit to the pediatrician today, Stuart was confirmed having the official flu. No strep thankfully. Fever is being controlled by tylenol & advil. He was up every four hours last night with his fever. We both need a nap.

I also went to a Walgreeens take care clinic this morning after my MRI to get tested for strep. Negative! I am so thankful.

A week and a half later...

2009-03-04T20:04:00.000-06:00

It took a good 9 days for Stuart to get the bug that has been visiting our home. He came down with a fever this morning at home. He is miserable.

My mom will be watching him tomorrow during my MRI. He normally attends school on Thursdays. I am considering rescheduling my scan to the weekend while Dave is home. I will see how Stuart fairs tonight. He may need to see the pediatrician tomorrow to get tested for strep if the pain / fever meds don't help.

I'll keep you posted,
k-

March MRI, etc.

2009-03-04T08:59:00.003-06:00

An update on the next few weeks:

Tomorrow, Thursday is my MRI along with bloodwork. - Want a clear scan!
Results will be given next Tuesday, March 10 during my oncologist appointment.
March chemo will be Friday, March 13 - 17 pending my bloodwork results.

Cole's 9th birthday is Wednesday, March 11. The school is off half day! I am so looking forward to his special day. He has requested burgers & hot dogs on the grill. Hmm a cold March grilling?
He plans on having a sleepover that Friday. Carter will be at a retreat with his Sunday school class. Little Stu will enjoy the third grade boy sleepover party. Sleeping bags, cake, boys, games, What fun! Dave will stay up late with them as I need my sleep due to chemo.

Chat later-
k-

Cole update

2009-02-26T18:57:00.001-06:00

Yesterday, Cole was taken to the pediatricians office. Tested for strep & influenza. Positive for both. An antibiotic was given and he is better today. Thankfully. We are going to have him miss school again tomorrow since his immune system is so compromised. A whole week of school is what he has missed. I don't mind him missing school but he does. He is so ready to return.
** side note: 7 kids in his class have missed this week. It brings some comfort to him to know others are going through this.

hope all is well with you,
k-

Kinda well

2009-02-23T13:49:00.004-06:00

Yesterday within hours everyone but Stu were sick in our home. Dave along with Carter came home after baseball practice and mentioned their ills. Dave was doing a grocery run for me as Carter vomited in the cracker isle. Lovely! Everyone went to bed early ish. I couldn't sleep till 4 am. I had difficulty sleeping as I went to bed at 9:30. Today I was able to rest since Dave stayed home from work. Poor Cole is taking this bug the hardest. It came in different forms in all of us. One diarrhea, the other fever, another diarrhea & vomit, a just yucky feeling one.

Everyone but Cole is better.

Oops forgot to mention...Cancer wise info.
1. next MRI & monthly bloodwork - Thursday, March 5
2. oncology follow up - Tuesday, March 10

Chat later,
k-

This n that

2009-02-22T17:00:00.001-06:00

I am feeling woozy today for some reason. After church I had to have my window down for the fresh air. I also attempted a nap after we ate Bread Co.. To no avail I couldn't fall asleep. I ALWAYS fall asleep. It is never a problem. At least I rested. Cole as well does not feel good he will most likely stay home from school tomorrow.

The stitches are out! I pulled one that was undone yesterday and the other as well.

I have some wonderful notes from church that I really wanted to share. Maybe in a few hours. Hopefully it doesn't turn into days.

much love,
k-

February Chemo complete!

2009-02-18T20:50:00.000-06:00

I am going to bed soon due to fatigue.
Well, it seems that the February chemo cycle...

...was better than all the rest
...best one yet
...bowels a workin'
...minimal headaches
...fatigue? YES that's a given
...a tongue sore - uncomfortable but tolerable

Thank you for praying over this month it is a delight to share the blessings. Yes, I said blessing in regards to chemo. I had a great last few weeks spending some time in contemplation. I am considering a blog on "Can a person get used to having cancer?"

Update on the stitched finger: It is sore but improving. A band aid is covering it most of the time due to the stitching catching on clothing, towels, etc. It pulls which makes it uncomfortable. I am a little freakish on cutting things since the accident. A friend brought over a bread loaf. I was relieved to see it was already sliced. Whew!

A little tired, time for bed.
k-

Stitches

2009-02-15T15:35:00.002-06:00

Yes, this is my left hand as of noon today. While making sandwiches I sliced a tiny portion of my middle finger which required two stitches. Ouch! The two needle pricks to numb it were painful along with the stitching. The lidocaine obviously didn't work. I really do not know WHY they put such a HUGE bandage on my finger (a band aid is covering the stitches). I felt it was picture worthy - All but my non manicured hands. Oh well. Not much typing in the near future. 24 hours of keeping it dry with original band aid. In 7 days the stitches can be removed.

Tonight is my 3 of 5 chemo pills. I am so thankful that it will be halfway over. No headaches thus far. Pray it continues. The constipation & fatigue are another issue.

Oh, I also received a tetanus shot as I wasn't sure of my last one. My arm is sore as well. Oh well.
k-

Starting February chemo

2009-02-12T09:13:00.001-06:00

Chemo starts tomorrow (Friday) evening till Tuesday.

k-

Tuesdays update

2009-02-10T13:21:00.002-06:00

Todays oncology appointment went well. He ordered a thyroid blood test since my weight has increased sixteen pounds since last December. He said it is not likely that Temodar causes the weight gain. Yes, it is this gal who doesn't exercise regularly. Ok, I didn't do it prior to December so what's the deal? I am really seeing it in my pants. Aghhhhh. No thank you.

Thankfully, my WBC was the same as last month a good 5.1. It needed to be over 4.0.

I will have my MRI next month in March prior to seeing the doctor again. My normal labs will also be taken at that time.

k-

Get out & play

2009-02-09T12:11:00.000-06:00

Well, its a beautiful Monday here in the St. Louis community. A fine day to enjoy the outside. A breeze is a blowin' but not too blustery. Okay enough on the so desired weather. I am not a winter lover for sure. I just spent some time outside chatting with a friend while Stuart played with Calvin in the sunny delight.

Dave's parents left Sunday around noon for their drive back to Indiana. It was a wonderful weekend spending time with them. Each boy won their respective basketball games and 5 Guys burgers & fries was a sure winner. A little noisy but what do you expect for such a trendy place. I was able to take a nap after the long Saturday once home. We made homemade pizzas for dinner with a great easy dessert. My mom told me about a weight watchers dessert with only 2 points (of course ours were more due to the whip cream) yum yum. A rasberry was also a delight on top. This cake was a box of angel food mixed with a can of crushed pineapple in its own juice. Bake for 25+ minutes in the correct degree oven (check the box directions). Once complete take out of the oven and turn upside down on an elevated container to cool. I was wiggin thinking the cake would fall out but mom assured me it wouldn't . She was right! It is great for breakfast as well. Or at least I think it is.

I have a oncology appointment tomorrow morning with my labs taken prior to that time. I am hoping my white blood cell count is still at a good level - above 4.0. Please pray accordingly. I have a busy day as I have another doctors appointment after the oncologist. Yippee - not. I was trying to save on gas money & my time as they are in the St. Johns area with staggered times.

Hope your day is well...

k-

Crazy Hair Day 2009

2009-02-06T08:21:00.006-06:00

I had so much fun taking the older boys pictures this morning as it was crazy hair day today. They didn't have to wear their uniforms so it is always a bustle of activity on special days. Enjoy the pics! I just couldn't crop out my new "S" monogrammed flag out of Cole's individual picture. I am sure most understand.

Dave's parents are visiting this weekend. We are looking forward to spending time with them. We haven't seen them since the summer. They will be able to take in two basketball games. We are going to let them experience the burgers at 5 Guys burgers and fries. YUMMY! Cannot go wrong with greasy burgers. Ok, you might be saying, Kate you were just complaining of the weight gain - beluga whale fat on the trunk. Yes, I was but splurging once in a while is fine.

Carter had two looks.
Blue wig & sprayed painted

Peace Out from the Snodgrass boys

Oops!

2009-02-04T10:02:00.000-06:00

Last night our school had a dinner fundraiser at McD's. I waited for Dave to arrive from work as he would be taking Cole to his basketball practice. Carter & Stuart will return home with me. Tag team. Okay, as you know I am not a fan of Mc D's. Especially since I am trying to lose some of the beluga whale fat from fall. Yes, no more silver lining of losing weight with chemo. It is gaining weight. Aghh. Cannot fit well into my pants. Not sure if it is the lack of exercise being winter or foods eaten. I am trying to watch what I am eating till spring arrives. Okay off the tangent of beluga fat on my hips and trunk...

Last night after ordering the boys eats I left for Chic Fil A. I just couldn't bring myself to eating McD's. I went to our van after unlocking it with my keys and noticed a tote on the passenger seat. "Hmmm who got in my van to give me the tote?" Oh my goodness these are leather seats! This is NOT our van. I totally went into someone elses vehicle. I was alarmed to say the least till I figured out it was a family from our school who has the same van as us except with nicer seats. I laughed all the way to Chic Fil A. Only me. That reminded me of a time when I went into a mens restroom at the Old Spaghetti Factory downtown. Ha ha ha.

Heres to good laughs...
k-

I am working on a more in depth post in my head. It will take some time to compile my thoughts. I so need a notepad by my bed at night.

Snow snow & more snow

2009-01-28T17:05:00.004-06:00

Last night it snowed. Carter went out late to measure the depth at 5.5 inches. This morning the total in depth was 7.5 maybe not .5 exactly but close to it. We had fun this afternoon sledding at a local church hill. I was hoping to see someone we knew. Today I brought the camera during our sledding time. Of course, the battery died at just the opportune time. I wanted to get a group pic of me and the boys. No deal. Carter was bummed as well for his "runs" with the snowboard were getting some "serious air" due to a great bump / ramp at the end. He hit them well without falling. You know I would so be on my duff. I was yesterday trying to avoid hitting Cole as we were in a race. ME on a normal sled as I totally do not get on the board. I am not as much as a risk taker as I used to be.

We spent a good hour in the morning & afternoon shoveling snow from the driveway. The afternoon hour was more productive - thanks to the sunshine.

Whoa Stuart!

Today, Stuart even went down by himself (normally it is with a brother). Although, he ran into a dad's ankle at the bottom. The red coat dad was not nice to Stuart as he said to some extent "Why don't you yell as you are coming down?" I so wanted to yell at him for his idiotic response to a four year old on a sled. Like a toddler can warn someone at the bottom. Grrr, mama bear here....Man why don't YOU move out of the way for the young sledders are coming down. Ding dong! I didn't say anything (bit my tongue) but gently to Stu "Sweetie lets watch it." He is so not aware of sledding etiquette. Give the four year old some slack. I so wanted to....Cannnot share on here. Thanks for lettting me get it off my chest. Enough about sledding.. All in all we had a blast! Yesterday AND today.
With wind burned faces..
k-

C-train a chuggin' down!

Yo, Carter you got it!

Snow Day 2009

2009-01-27T12:46:00.001-06:00

3 Too Cool boys
(of course, Carter is the one who thinks he is cool in the pic. He is at a stage where he thinks it is fun to make a cool look. - NOT)

Everyone LOVES a good snow day! Dave and I have reminisced with the boys on cold evenings about our younger days. Dave in a Indiana blizzard when he was in kindergarten coming home on the back of a pickup. It was a white out kind of day. Me, with my older brother, Andrew building a igloo on our brick patio. Eating inside the igloo was a highlight for me! Other great stories as well.

My only hesitation with snow days is the sleet. One year I almost slid into a gas pump. Yep, Yikes! I see now why they have the poles near the pumps. It is because of young chics like me who cannot drive on ice. Of course, who can or should for that matter? I went to my grandparents home nearby to calm down. Grandma with loads of lovin' food was a delight to my heart and calmed my fears of seeing a explosion before my eyes. Yes, probably unlikely but my young heart and lack of knowledge(immaturity) thought it would have been possible.

Cole & Stuart have enjoyed today by using Tonka construction vehicles (diggers, backhoes, dumptrucks, etc) in the snow. Cole even put a heart in the snow with a warming message to me. He is my tender one.

Cool Carter went sledding near our neighbors home.

Here's to boys, snow, hot cocoa, marshmellows and NO school....
k-

January...? Check

2009-01-22T18:23:00.004-06:00

Well, the verdict is in... January's chemo is now complete / over. Check that one off my list. Aside from Sunday nights migraine it was tolerable. The migraine so NOT tolerable. Don't want to repeat that in February!

February chemo cycle:
Friday, February 13 through Tuesday, February 17

Chat later...
k-

From bad to worse to better..

2009-01-19T15:30:00.000-06:00

That's right the title sums up last night (Sunday). I had a headache during dinner, took a 500 mg tylenol. Did other stuff around the home. The headache did not lessen. While on the computer last night (email, surfing, etc) I was reminded by Dave to take my Zofran. It was 9:37. Oops! I still needed to take my chemo after (usually one hour) the Zofran. I went upstairs to take the Zofran along with two 500 mg of tylenol. My headache was still not better after dinner. It actually was more bothersome. After the two tylenols it worsened. I was in a full fledge migraine. I laid down hoping it would relieve itself. My stomach was upset. I couldn't even go downstairs to let Dave know how I felt. I really wanted to let him know about my head. After two hours I felt it could have merited a ER trip for some major pain meds. Thankfully by midnight it was gone. I truly meant to take the chemo, Temodar but my stomach was so upset I didn't want to add to the issue at hand. It looks as if my chemo will stop Wednesday evening instead of Tuesday. Not sure if the migraine was attributed to the Temodar or hormones or Zofran. It is known that Temodar & Zofran side effects include headaches.

Thankfully, my constipation issues are not as bad as Decembers cycle. I guess this is a trade off.

How long?

2009-01-13T16:35:00.001-06:00

Dr. Needles stated that depending on my blood counts and scans I could most likely go another 6 months with chemo (Temodar). It was a good visit today. I am thankful and relieved he made a decision about the chemo. Yes, not one I wanted to hear but thankful none the less.

My January chemo starts on Friday.

I wait for the LORD, my soul waits
and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 130:5

Taking it month to month or (really day to day)...

k-

Sneaking up appointments

2009-01-12T10:01:00.000-06:00

Boy, I'm tellin' ya these monthly doctors appointments sneak up on me. Tomorrow morning I am to see my oncologist, Dr. Needles. I will have my labs taken prior to the appointment. Many questions will be asked to him regarding chemo continuance. Will it be February( 1 year 1 month) or June (1 1/2 years) or later? Please pray for his wisdom and God given endurance for me. I honestly think it boils down to... Do I trust? The doctor or God.

Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust.
Psalm 40:4

Dr. Cohen

2009-01-06T19:49:00.002-06:00

The eye appointment was today and went well. No problems were seen. I am thankful! I see the oncologist next Tuesday in the morning to decide what is to be done after this determination.

I am tired and need to get to bed (or at least get Stuart to bed). Sorry for being so short.

Just wanted to give you an update. . .

k-

Mom, etc.

2009-01-05T20:04:00.001-06:00

My mom has not been feeling well. I would appreciate you praying for doctors wisdom. Thank you.

It has been busy weeks around the home with the boys. Christmas break ended today with school starting up. Today especially was a flurry of activity. Stuart had his long overdue four year check up. Three shots later he seems to be a normal growing boy. I am thankful. I don't take good health for granted.

This past weekend we enjoyed Carter's basketball tourney. They lost one but won two. Not bad. Cole is looking forward to starting his seasons first game this Saturday. Mom is as well. I hear he is working on his block out move. I so love basketball.

I have my eye doctor appointment downtown at Siteman tomorrow at 11. My mom will accompany me at that time. I did have the eye pain tonight. I truly think it is from fatigue. After I write this I am going to bed no later than 8:30. Stuart's checkup was at 2 this afternoon during his quiet time. (aka: my quiet time.)

Thank you for praying for my mom.
k-

Quandary

2009-01-01T10:01:00.002-06:00

"It looks good any way you have it." That would have been a expected/ normal response from Dave not long ago.

I have been indecisive about what to do about my hair. My hair is so due for a trim (probably major cut) if I want to keep it a shorter length. Longer or shorter....I like it either way I have found. When asking Dave the other day what he prefers he said to my surprise. "I like how you are growing it out." I was thrilled to have a defined answer from him who matters most. I will let it grow till the bangs get too much on my nerves. I have cut my bangs twice since I last saw the stylist.
Enough on the hair saga.... Yes, as you can remember I didn't want short hair in the beginning of the cancer trial but, that has changed. Or I guess you could say I have changed /let it go. Refined... Adjusted...(whatever terminology you choose). I am just glad to have my hair.

Last night (New Years Eve) a friend asked how the December chemo cycle went. I hadn't really told the blog community. Sorry. Here it is if you wanna know. Not too exciting that is for sure.

1. labor like cramping due to constipation (the yummy rice pudding and hoppin' johns black eyed peas (Friday morning & Thursday evening) prior to chemo didn't help I am sure. Cut out the carbs - cut out the carbs prior to chemo - I forgot that chemo was approaching It happens.)
2. fatigue
3. joint pain

Yes, #1 was a killer for sure. It felt as if I was delivering one of my babies. Please know I will attempt to cut out the carbohydrates prior to chemo. Zofran & Temodar side effects include constipation along with headaches. Thank you very much.

I have my eye appointment with Dr. Cohen downtown at Sitemans on Tuesday, January 6 (my sister, Jeanie's birthday) at 11. He is to check the pressure of my eye. Thankfully only minor aches in the right eye have occured since seeing the oncologist. Pain due to fatigue? Possibly teeth grinding in my sleep? We will hopefully see. I am just thankful no serious pain has occured in a long while.

January schedule includes an oncologist appointment on Tuesday, January 13. Possible chemo on Friday the 16th - Tuesday the 20th. It soley depends on Dr. Needles. I'm assuming he will take me into June. That will be a year and a half on chemo. I hope he'll be more decisive at the January appointment.

Here's to hair and chemo. . . Have a great 2009

k-

Christmas 2008 Pics

2008-12-26T10:21:00.004-06:00

Happy Snodgrass 3

The olders waiting for the elders to come down early in the morning.

(Click on the picture to see Carter's expression, not so good of Cole- he will not be pleased.) I honestly laughed when I saw this (waiting that is). Totally picture worthy! They were up at 6:30ish for I heard them walking around. They were advised not to wake us till 7. Stuart is always up at that time. No matter how late he goes down at night he is up at 7. He is my alarm clock.

Can't be Christmas without your cookies & milk.

We had a great day of staying in our pjs. (I even took two naps) After a late (10:30) breakfast, the older boys went on a hike with Aunt Jeanie. We then met her with Stuart at Grandma & Poppy's for Christmas dinner. Grandma outdid herself this year. The cookie spread was like I have never seen it.

Thank you all for praying for a non cancer surgery recovery day. It was GREAT!!

Much love,
kate

Reflecting...

2008-12-24T11:53:00.003-06:00

The boys have been on Christmas break since Friday. I have not had much computer time which is fine with me. I enjoy for the most part being with the boys. Lots of normal bickering with them, though.

OK on to the post...
I have spent the past few days (kids and all) reflecting on where I was a year ago this Christmas season. I remember having to ask permission for an eight hour home pass on Christmas day. Dave came to the rehab hospital early to get me ready. Signed release forms. Pushed the wheelchair down the hall. Pulled up the warmed car. All in. Driving home thinking about the boys anticipation was more than words can express. (My anticipation as well.) We are home. Dave parked and helped me into the house. Lopsided I was. I could partially walk with a WHOLE LOT OF SUPPORT. Inside Stuart almost knocked me over. Literally. The boys couldn't wait any longer to open the stockings & presents. I teetered into the living room, thankful but exhausted being home. After stockings we opened presents in the sitting room (tree locale) It was a bustle of wonderful activity - so much for my brain comprehension. I took a LONG nap after breakfast.

This year I look forward to waking in my own bed (hopefully after 7, depends on the boys). Then on to stockings, presents & breakfast. All in our p.j's. We used to have a family brunch. This year I really desired for it to be low key for the morning. We will see Grandma & Poppy later in the day.

Please pray I would not forget my blessings and reflections that are so hard to put into words.

Have a blessed Christmas. I am so thankful Jesus came as a baby to save you and I. I am so unworthy.

Blessed be the name of the Lord!

kate

Hannah Garman

2008-12-20T09:07:00.000-06:00

Although I am not doing Christmas cards this year (time constraints, postage, lack family picture, etc) I will most likely make an exception for Hannah Garman.
Please check this out on snopes. (Cut & paste) It was sent to me in an email. A five year old girl dying from a brain tumor is asking for Christmas cards this year. She has a caringbridge website.

http://www.snopes.com/inboxer/medical/garman.asp

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/hannahgarman

Yes, I am on chemo as of last night. I was speaking with a friend who asked how I was doing this morning and my response was "It feels like I have lead in my legs. Someone most likely gave me an exhaustion pill. I am thankful to be alive, though. "

Have a good one.
k-

Search is on

2008-12-17T14:38:00.001-06:00

The search is on... What could it be? Eye pressure vs. night teeth grinding?

My MRI came back clear - Hallelujah! Did I hear you say? Oh yes! The scan compared to October showed no change. The hunt is on to find out the eye pain (that is not as prominent as before). I did make the earliest available appointment with my eye doctor, Bruce Cohen on Tuesday, January 6 to check eye pressure. The bummer of it all is that it is at his Siteman office. Traffic! No thanks to the hwy 40 fiasco. Many thanks to Caleb's mom for being willing to watch Stuart after school. I will most likely not be home by noon. I am going to see if my mom can be with me at the appointment. I totally cannot drive well with the eye dilation procedure. For that matter I cannot drive well as it is. Ha ha ha. Ok, this wasn't a joke post surgery last year for as you know I couldn't drive due to the left sided disability.

Chemo will start this weekend for the five day dosage.

I will see oncologist, Dr. Needles January 13 to discuss any further issues. Bloodwork will be taken prior to the appointment and January chemo to follow on the 16th most likely.

That is all folks. (did you think of the Bugs? - bunny that is.)

kate

Will Wait

2008-12-16T14:50:00.001-06:00

Yes, the MRI scan was today and went quite well. Lying still for a good 40 minutes is difficult. I was so ready to move about after probably 30 (the time when I'm pulled out & given the contrast by arm). Thank you for praying. I had many telling me they were praying. It was felt. I was at peace prior to going in today. I honestly haven't much severe eye pain since I told the doctor a week ago today. Hmmmm. Something to think about.

A little Target stocking stuffer shopping and veggie shopping at Whole Foods was good therapy after lying still in the tube for 45 minutes.

I have been asked if I could do an open MRI. I decided to ask the lady who does my scans what the difference is? She mentioned (to some extent of my understanding / processing abilities) that it would take longer than 45 minutes for me since the magnets? force fields ? are not as strong. Ok, no thanks an hour of laying still like a mummy is not my cup of tea. I took the time today to look deeply inside the MRI machine once out. The ones at the hospital are longer than the ones at T & C.

Will wait along with you to find out the results from the scan. I will call tomorrow to see if the doctora has any info.

hope your day is a good one. gotta run to pick up the older boys at school,
k-

Tuesday

2008-12-13T17:17:00.001-06:00

The MRI (for my eye pain) is scheduled for Tuesday, December 16 at 9:15. I will know my results most likely on Thursday after I hear from my oncologist, Dr. Needles. It is likely I will take my 5 day December chemo cycle on Friday the 19th. As stated prior it depends on the doctor and MRI results.

k-

Speak to me

2008-12-11T10:42:00.000-06:00

I am so thankful for Gods unfailing love and mercy. This song by Aaron Shust is such a blessing to my heart. He is one of my favorite artists.
Copy and paste.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXWdhRvNXME&feature=related

God's mercies are new every morning.
kate

More news today

2008-12-09T17:11:00.001-06:00

The bloodwork from today came back normal. Rheumatoid & SED. I am thankful. No concerns with my body fighting what it shouldn't. After my nap I was at peace knowing that I was supposed to have a MRI near January. It is just going to be sooner like a few weeks sooner. I thank you for praying for my fears. I am where I should be - In the arms of Jesus with the unknowns. Like I told my mom I just need to get used to the "normals of cancer life." You'd think I would have it down by now. Ummm... it's been two years with brain cancer. I guess I am a student in training. Please take the time to read the comment from Amy about the LPM blog. It was a good one. May it encourage your heart what Beth Moore wrote.

My MRI is scheduled for Tuesday, December 16. I most likely will take my five day December chemo cycle on the 19th. That will be up to the report and Dr. Needles.

thank you for being my friend,
kate

All I want ...

2008-12-09T11:29:00.004-06:00

Todays oncologist appointment proved to be a up and down kind of one. The white blood cell count was 4.1. That was the up. The rest should be written by Dave but he is at work so I will do my best to write the rest out. It may have to be edited at a later time. Please work with me on this one. I am doing my best to gather my thoughts. Okay here is the next paragraph on the down.

Yes, I am thankful for the 4.1 WBC. I did go in the appointment telling Dr. Needles about my right eye pain that is intermittent and runs to the back of my head (did not tell my bloggers) . He felt is necessary for me to have a MRI within the next week or two prior to starting my December chemo (supposed to be this Friday wants to hold off till the MRI results). He wants to see if there is concern in the brain area. He thinks unlikely. The doctor also asked if I have had my eye pressure checked recently. "I have." Thank you very much with Dr. Cohen. I was encouraged to have another appointment and have it checked again since that appointment was in September. Dr. Needles also asked if I grind my teeth at night - which I assume I do and have had my dentist recommend a nightguard. Yet to use....yeah yeah yeah. I know what you are thinking. Wear that nightguard. I do have to say the dentist at my latest appointment didn't mention the grinding of teeth nor the nightguard. OFF TRACK. Sorry for the tangent on the nightguard dentist thing. On to the next item... I also mentioned that my joints have been hurting since the November chemo cycle. (I try not to write every ache and pain I have with this cancer chemo thing on the blog.) He put in second lab order. After looking over the order it seems he is looking for
1. rheumatoid factor (joint I assume)
2. SED rate (something to do with an infection in the blood- (got this info from the blood draw person)). Not sure if the low WBC last month did a work on my body or not. I am hopeful that I will hear from the doctor today on the results. Maybe the next hour or so. Okay... back to the MRI... I am to schedule it soon and call the doctor a few days later to discuss the results.

All I wanted for Christmas was a low key stay in your pajamas time with my family. I was in tears hearing that I was to have a MRI prior to December 25. I don't want another season of unrest. Yes, I know God is in control and Dr. Needles is just being precautionary(as I want). Please pray for my fear. I have been through the mill. I am crushed emotionally. Thank you for praying on my behalf.

It was a year this December 7 since my second surgery. My left side was not functioning. This morning getting ready I was thinking about how I felt with the disability. I couldn't hug my kids with both arms, stand, walk, brush my teeth, put my bra on correctly or for that matter get dressed by myself. Standing in the shower was difficult (shhhh Emily & Sarah) Thankfully by God's grace I can do all these things. He has brought me through a lot the past two years. I know He will be faithful during this next round of the unknown.

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

Psalm 121: 1 & 2

with a tender heart, kate

This N That

2008-12-02T06:53:00.002-06:00

YO boys in front of the tree. Hmm who is holding it up?

I have a packed day (as usual) but wanted to give an update on the past few days. We enjoyed Thanksgiving with family on Thursday. On Saturday we cut down our Christmas tree. That was a great idea for snow appeared on Sunday yesterday too. We usually put the lights on first then the following day ornaments arise. The house has been a bustle trying to decorate for Jesus' birthday. Lots of bins in the rooms along with lights.

proud Carter happy to cut it down this year

I have a oncologist appointment, Tuesday, December 9 in the morning. I will have my blood drawn prior to the appointment. I am wondering what my WBC count will be. Please be in prayer that it has gone above a 4.0. Also I have a praise. I had a cold this past week that has gone away without any hitches. I thought for sure that it would be a doozie of a cold due to my November WBC count of 3.2.

That is all...

k-

Thankful!

2008-11-26T07:18:00.003-06:00

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped;
My heart leaps for joy and
I will give thanks to him in song.
Psalm 28:7

Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.

Psalm 100:4

Carter's verse on his paper cornucopia from school had Psalm 28:7 on it with the things he is thankful for.
Not in any particular order just written on the fruit and veggies.
- TV - because it is entertaining.
- Soda - because it "taest" good.
- Food - because I could not live without it.
-Baseball Cards - because they are entertaining.

Cole's cornucopia had Psalm 100:4 without thankful items written on it. I don't think it was the third grades assignment for that craft. Cole mentioned to me yesterday morning on the way to school that there is so much he is thankful for that it wouldn't fit on any paper. He mentioned bugs (he LOVES bugs) because we as humans are dependent on plants to give us oxygen. Without bugs there wouldn't be any plants was his reasoning. That is my deep thinker for ya. He did have a turkey made from his footprint with the following poem:

Thanksgiving is cool.
Pumpkin pie is awesome.
I love Thanksgiving.

We cannot leave out Stuart. He made two placemats this year. One for school the other at CBS (bible study). When asked what he is most thankful for his reply is "My puppy". That is his bedtime lovie. We cannnot go to bed without her. He calls puppy a her. At school yesterday, he made an adorable notecard with his fingerprint. Keepsake that is for sure!On the placemat is the following poem:

The Feast of the Tabernacles is a celebration
when God’s people remember the many wonderful
things He did for them after they left Egypt.

Remember, remember, how God loved them so,
And saved them from the Egyptians a long time ago;
He opened the sea so they could pass by,
He put a cloud of protection up in the sky;
He kept them safe and wanted them to know
To praise Him, to thank Him for loving them so.

Thanksgiving Day is a time when we give
thanks to God for all He has blessed us with.

I am thankful for many things this holiday. The depths of my thankfulness are hard to put in writing.

Update- so far I do not have a infection yet. Just a cold. Please pray it stays that way due to my low white blood cell count. My body most likely will not be able to fight off an infection too well. I am guessing it is still low. Time will tell.

The boys are off today for the start of Thanksgiving break.
Off to make breakfast...
k-

Clarifications

2008-11-21T09:07:00.001-06:00

Some people have asked me the following questions so I will attempt to clarify in the blog.

1. Your WBC (white blood cell count) was low (3.2) in November when will you know if it has gone up to the correct range of 4.0 - 9.8?
I am to see the oncologist Tuesday, December 9. We should know then as I will be getting my labs taken prior to the appointment.

2. When will your monthly chemo regimen stop?
That is up to the oncologist. The November on call oncologist stated that it is desired for a brain cancer patient to take Temodar one to two years. A clinical trial has not been done on the findings of this chemo and how long it should be taken. So... one year most likely will be sufficient. It is solely up to my oncologist, Dr. Needles. My records state I started January 2008. I was thinking he would allow me to discontinue in February 2009.

3. What will happen after you finish the monthly chemo?
To be honest I am not sure. This is something we will ask at the next appointment. The following is my guess...

Monthly labs & doctors appointments most likely. MRI's (not sure how often) depends on the doctor. I am guessing every two months.

Hope that covers it
k-

Happy 4 Years Stu!

2008-11-20T08:15:00.003-06:00

School birthday cookie & crown

Showing off my gifts - love the feet!

Blowing the cake candles

Breakfast tradition

Happy Day Stuart!

Sweet as candy

2008-11-17T16:49:00.002-06:00

That's right! Did you see they are in the grocery stores? Clementines. It reminds me of my first surgery hospital stay craving and the clementine caper delivery. Was that a run on sentence? As for the clementines in the store... Stuart and I purchased our first batch for the season. I had to control our eating of them prior to the photo shoot. They do taste sweet as candy. Stuart ate two for lunch with his p b and j sandwich. I love how they are easy to peel with no seeds.

Driving home today I wanted to give you a funny of Carter and Cole's conversation ....

Cole: Hey Carter, what kind of truck would you buy besides a Honda or Toyota? I would buy a Dodge Ram. (after he just looked at a hot one on the highway.)

Carter: I'd get a Nissan.

Cole: quickly remarks Oh yeah I forgot about Nissan, I'll switch to that.

**Carter: Cole, a professional baseball player should have three vehicles. A run down car to take to the games so no one will steal your car then a hot one. Also your wife will need a mini van.

I piped in to say "Hey what if your wife doesn't want a mini van?" He just responded well she then can have anything she wants. If you have a only child then they can have a hot car as well. Clementines to minivans...

Carter relaxing after school

Stuarts 4th birthday party

2008-11-16T16:56:00.004-06:00

So cute!

The pirates at play (Stuart & Christina) up on the boat

astronaut Sophie with elated pirate Stu
(he LOVES her - oh a 4 year old romance)

Today we celebrated with Stuarts friends his fourth birthday. The official day is this coming Thursday the 20th. He had a blast in the Creation Station at the Museum of Transportation. There were four year old pirates, astronauts, chefs, and fireman roaming around along with a multitude of train tracks. Great pretend play. I took some pictures while Carter video taped. After returning home we came to the realization that a group picture was not taken. Big bummer. Enjoy some of the pictures I did take. He had so much fun and is currently playing with the gifts upstairs with Cole .

He loved all his gifts and was especially happy to have his teacher, Mrs. Byars at his party. The Lightning Mcqueen sound effect book was a real hit! Thank you, Mrs. Byars. He adores you.

A funny part of the party was when Anneka asked "Is this Stuart's home?" The huge playroom was painted with transportation stuff galore. Oh to be four.

It was a low key party for me as I didn't do a thing except show up with cupcakes and enjoy in their fun. Cupcakes were served as it was the easy option - No cutting of cake. I am all about easy. You learn after three kids and cancer.

Chemo is going well. I am filling up on prunes to help with the constipation. I love the taste of prunes so it is not a bad deal.

Today was a good day.

Gotta think about dinner...
k-

Morning surprise

2008-11-12T08:32:00.001-06:00

While doing my makeup for the day I noticed this little man was in my bed (after it was already made). It was a picture worth taking. Messed up bed and all. Have a good day. He is Indiana Jones with his hat and fake whip just thrown.

Gotta get going for the day. Carter & Cole are off half day.
k-

WBC low

2008-11-10T14:20:00.000-06:00

Dr. Hu was my oncologist for the morning. My WBC is a low 3.2. The range is 4.0 - 9.8. My October WBC was 8.4. We will need to monitor this more closely. I am not sure at this point if my chemo regimen will be lowered Friday for Novembers cycle. I have a call into Dr. Hu as I forgot to ask. It is most likely going to stay at 350 mg. I also forgot to ask what is expected with a low white blood cell count. Time to google this information. See below.

White blood cells. These cells help your body fight infection. A low white blood cell count (leukopenia) leaves your body more open to infection. And if an infection does develop, your body may be unable to fight it off.

Following up on my earlier post concerning early menopause...

80 - 90 % of patients taking Temodar (chemo) experience early menopause. Time will tell. I will find out more later with Dr. Needles.

k-

November doctors appt.

2008-11-09T22:05:00.001-06:00

My November oncologist appointment is in the morning. Labs to be taken prior to the appointment. I forgot to do my labs on Friday & Saturday. Oops. Dr. Needles is out for a few days. I will see a doctor on call. I have a few questions this time around.

1. Chemo induced early menopause (I'll chat possibly later with you on this one.)
2. Chemo stop date - Will it be February? (of course this ? will probably have to wait till Decembers appointment)

Gotta get to bed...
k-

Two Year Anniversary

2008-11-07T08:00:00.000-06:00

Today is the TWO YEAR anniversary from the first brain surgery. I can't believe it has been two years already. Last night a flood of emotions came over me. Carter was reflective at bedtime as well. He said that he couldn't believe it was that long ago. He said he is thankful that surgery is not for this Christmas season.

Below are some reflections I have for today. I may add more throughout the day as time allows. Some of these were reminded to me in a email from a friend watching her husband going through cancer.

1. As I study Romans in CBS...asking GOD to help me remember it all, and never forget what HE has done - the list is large and for me to ..." rejoice in this suffering, knowing it will produce endurance, character and hope-hope that will not disappoint because God's love has been poured into my heart through the Holy Spirit who has been given to me " ( Romans 5:3-5).

2. A desire for our boys to never forget watching their mom and dad go through this...They will tell of HIS wonderful acts...(Ps. 145:)... they (we) will eagerly utter the memories of GOD's abundant goodness...

3. God's goodness - Wow! Where do I begin?

4. The unknowns of cancer...vs...NO unknowns of God. He is in control. Hallelujah

5. The love of God never left me.

6. I can be here with my family for two good years. - Walking Talking, Laughing, Some processing (be it slow.)

7. A commited caring husband

8. The hands and feet of Jesus with people here on Earth. Meals, housecleaning, cards, phonecalls, an ear to listen, etc.

Add more in the comments as you see fit.
kate

Scripture for Voting Day

2008-11-03T16:52:00.004-06:00

My Bible study leader sent an email today encouraging us with the following. It was a great reminder to me after I studied Daniel (end times) two years ago. Thank you, Sharon.
kate

As we pray about our nation and the elections tomorrow, let’s be comforted and encouraged by the truth that God is in control.

“Praise be to name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and season; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him.“

Daniel 2:20-22

Trusting

2008-11-03T13:49:00.001-06:00

May the God of
hope fill you with all
joy and peace as you
trust in Him.
Romans 15:13

The above verse is a card that was on my kitchen cabinet from someone who sent it to me last year. The past few days it has spoken to my heart. May you ponder and be blessed by it as well.
k-

Todays Pictures - Enjoy

2008-11-01T19:18:00.002-05:00

Burning bush in backyard

Neighbors Tree

Backyard looking up

Pinecone in cul de sac

Front porch view

Happy Stuart on warm November day

C train in action (Cole)

Holly berry tree on corner of house in bloom

Boiler Up

2008-10-27T14:50:00.003-05:00

I love this man!
We are imperfect people perfect for each other.

Dave and I just returned from a great getaway weekend at Purdue. They lost the football game against Minnesota but oh well. We had fun. At the game the fans cheered "Boiler up" when the athletes did a defensive move. Dave said that is a new term. I bought a shirt with those words. It is drying as we type. I had fun repeating "boiler up" to him. Lots of eating out, walking and shopping was had along with good conversation. We did go to LaBamba, the mexican joint that boasts they have burritos as big as your head. Ughhh. Dave stated it wasn't what he remember them tasting like. I agreed. We were disappointed. Our taste buds have been radically changed with me having cancer and such. We revamped our eating habits the past two years and it shows. I am sure the mexican food was just like it used to be - but oh well. After the game and food I took a late afternoon nap at the hotel. I was exhausted. (I am laughing at the above sentence stating our eating habits changed since surgery. With what I am about to type.) We ended up having Cold Stone Creamery ice cream for our dinner by accident. (Timing was off.) We decided to go back to the hotel after the sugar to watch some movies and never went back out. We were full from the bomba. So much for a healthy dinner. (shhh don't tell the kids.) Sunday morning we were so ready for a good breakfast.

Artwork at LaBamba

Many thanks to my mom for helping take care of the boys on the homefront. Yes, she was the official "soccer gram" on Saturday with Cole's chilly early morning game. Stuart did not nap for her on two of the days. She had her hands full for sure.

The bummer of it all is that I missed Angie's memorial on Saturday. A friend mentioned to me the following in an email a few weeks ago.
"God, in his foreknowledge, KNEW Angie's days. He knew when she would die He knew when her memorial would be planned in St. Louis, and he KNEW that you and Dave would be planning a weekend together...and that it would be THAT weekend."

Great weekend memories...
k-

Voting Importance

2008-10-23T16:35:00.002-05:00

I am feeling much better this afternoon. Thank you. It was the chemo lapse side effect. Hmmm two days. I really hope it doesn't do this in November.

I normally don't get into political stuff yet, I thought this video was one NOT to pass up.

http://www.onenewssnow.com/valuesvoters.aspx

My post won't let me make it into a direct web link. You will need to copy and paste it to your internet. If you have a firewall it may not let you into the website.

Off to family movie night. Gotta get a movie and order pizza. The boys do not have school tomorrow - Teacher work day.

k-

Today was a First

2008-10-23T08:19:00.004-05:00

Today was a first ( hopefully not of many to come) in the chemo regimen. I finished my five day October cycle Tuesday night. This morning I was ill. I vomited. I am hoping constipation was the culprit. Zofran should help this morning along with sleep while Stuart is at school.

k-

Culture Results

2008-10-21T13:12:00.002-05:00

The results are in from Cole's finger culture from Friday.
Two items resulted. 1. Group A strep 2. Staph. Both will be eradicated with the oral antibiotic he has been on since Friday. Even the staph. The pediatrician affirmed my hesitations.

Gotta take a nap... I have been tired the past few days along with good nausea.

I am glad that tonight is the 5 of 5 nights chemo. Last Night Hooray!

k-

Impetigo part 2

2008-10-18T17:27:00.002-05:00

Ok, why is it pronounced em FE tigo and yet spelled impetigo. I don't see the silent "f" sound. Must be latin. I better ask Carter for he is taking it this year. Hmmmm.

The latest update on Cole is that the culture was taken, I forgot to ask the doctor when we will know the results. Stuart (Dennis) was all over the place during the appointment and Cole was a little fearful of it possibly hurting. Multitasking can we say? I was so ready to leave when it was all said and done. I called after my nap yesterday and spoke to a receptionist. She said most likely we will hear something after Tuesday on what the bacteria could be on his fingers. Cole was prescribed an oral antibiotic. He will be taking it along with his topical ointment three times daily. I need to soak his fingers daily. We can already see an improvement. The oral antibiotic is the big guns since Cole has a PCN, penicillin allergy. He cannot take the simple antibiotic of amoxicillin. He did not return to school yesterday for Grandparents Day. Fine for him. He also did not have his soccer game today. Not fine for him. It was forfeited due to many who could not attend. That made him feel better. Long story short: A culture was taken. We will find out more later. Cole and famly are recovering.

Today has been one of needed rest for all. I didn't get out of bed till 9:24 which is not like me. I was up at 6 ish yet stayed in bed. I also took a nap when Stuart had his quiet time this afternoon for I was tired. Chemo is now in effect. I have the normal first chemo side effects of a mild head rush and an upset stomach. Tolerable, so I cannot complain. I am hoping for no more effects.

Many thanks to Jane for bringing delicious, moist bran muffins to my home yesterday morning. I have devoured many. They will be gone by Sunday. No problem.

Today has been a good day.
kate

Impetigo

2008-10-17T09:30:00.002-05:00

Cole and Stuart came down this week with a contagious skin infection, impetigo. I am taking Cole to the doctor this morning. He doesn't have the spots on his face like Stuart did but his fingertips are infected. We just noticed it last night! Thankfully the oral antibiotic is helping Stuart. Cole is taking an antibiotic ointment. That most likely will change after the visit this morning. Please pray it is not a serious staph infection. What am I saying all staph infections are serious. Aren't they? Aghhhh.

http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/bacterial_viral/impetigo.html

Grandparents Day is this morning at school. My dad is attending. My mom is out of town. The other grandparents live out of state.

kate

BirthDAY pics

2008-10-15T19:53:00.005-05:00

Forgot to mention that a Fed Ex package arrived today. Yes, it was my chemo for Friday. It's a great reminder that I am thankful to be here on earth celebrating with my family(poison and all).

The family at dinner

35 year old Mom with her boys

Stuart helping mom blow out the candle

2 down, 45 to GO

2008-10-15T08:26:00.003-05:00

6:45 am revision: I came downstairs to find Carter making breakfast. An over easy egg with pancakes were already on the "You are special plate". Oh that does my heart good this morning. At bedtime, Stuart was crying wanting to give me my birthday card he just made. He didn't understand that it was in the morning. I look forward to opening it this morning at breakfast with everyone.

8:15 am revision: Carter summoned me to return to bed for breakfast in bed. He even made peppermint hot tea with my good china cup and a saucer! I never use a saucer on the weekdays let alone my cute cups. It is usually the hospital / school ugly mugs during the week. A cute surprise was the iced tea spoon he used to stir the honey. They are extremely long if you know what I mean. Stuart wanted to show me every sticker he used for the birthday card. Cole's creative card could have been used as a purse. He corrected me in saying it could be used as a necklace. Thanks to pipe cleaners aka: chenille stems. I will try to post pictures later today (maybe tomorrow) in this post. Keep checking.

Written yesterday as a draft for today:
That's right! I am 35 today! By my calculations 2 down and 45 to go for 82 years of living cancerfree. The doctors median expectancy 2 years ago gave me 4 years. I am thankful I have had two great years with my family and friends. Tonight we plan to celebrate as a family by eating out for dinner.

This is the day which the LORD has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Psalm 118:24

Dave and I have a weekend getaway planned sometime soon. We are going to see a Purdue football game. His alma mater. Yes, this was my idea. I love any time away with my husband. If football & food is in the mix...GREAT. I have already told him that I want to eat at the "Burritos as big as your head" locale. Cannot remember the name of the restaurant at this time. But you get what I am trying to say. The food there tastes good! The last game we attended was when we were dating. Good memories... Somewhat.... My feet froze during that November game. Not this time! I will be prepared. The picture below is from that weekend.

Purdue Calendar Girl
(NOT!)

Farewell

2008-10-14T10:11:00.002-05:00

On Sunday afternoon we hosted a Farewell Party for our good friends, Wade and Ramona. They are moving to Mississippi soon. They have been such good friends to us during the past few years. Wade spent each night with Dave while I was in the ICU for both surgeries. That's TWO. He was such a blessing to Dave to have someone there for companionship. Later they had good laughs over some things that happened. Dave is a hard sleeper. My 2006 nurse was trying to wake him at one point during the night. She "straddled" him from what Wade was saying. Not sure what the truth is...Oh well.

Our families have even vacationed together. August of 2007 was such fun at the Ozarks. We really had a good time getting to know one another. Good laughs. Ask them about the scorpions. Aghhh - maybe not

On to the party. It was good to have the energy to plan the event. It was also good to have the party on my planner prior to the MRI results last week. I was mostly concerned about the party details over the MRI results till I heard about Angie's death.

Wade, Ramona, Liliana & Leila you will be missed.

Stable

2008-10-10T11:41:00.002-05:00

The MRI results stated "stable" in the notes. We are praising God for this information today.

Sorry for a short post today but time is precious at home.

k-

Angie

2008-10-09T16:44:00.000-05:00

My friend, Angie passed away last night at 6:15. I found out this morning.

k-

99 Balloons

2008-10-08T14:39:00.004-05:00

Many thanks to Heather for posting this on her blog. I was oh SO touched. Be sure to turn up the volume and watch it ALL.
It is a great reminder of how a parent loves their child no matter what and how God loves ME no matter what. Thank you Jesus. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

Copy the following link and paste onto your browser.

http://www.ignitermedia.com/products/iv/singles/570/99-Balloons

k-

MRI again!

2008-10-07T17:09:00.002-05:00

Yes, my MRI was today. It was ok except for my need to clear my throat. I tried desperately hard to not move my head. Very hard to do when you need to clear the throat / cough when the machine is making the hard knocking noises along with clicking vibrations. I took my time praying for various needs that came to mind. It is nice having my MRI at the Town & Country location branch. The ladies there are getting to know me and I them. Levetta is a delight. She has decided to make a file specifically for me. You see I fill out the same papers each time I go in. It doesn't change that often and we know it. She asks about the boys especially Stuart since she has seen him often. It is like a hometown branch. The ladies were joking today. The mood was good. Sue is also a big help. She takes my labs every once in a while. She also was the one who did my first CT scan in late October of 2006. The first time we found out about the cancer. A day I won't forget....Laying in on the scan table wondering why I was having so many debilitating headaches.

Thanks for checking in. I see the doctor on Friday with the results. Pray for no change from the last scan.

Off to check on the homemade chicken noodle soup. Stuart and I are needing it badly tonight. Yes, he has it too.

k-

Why do you do...what you do?

2008-10-06T14:04:00.004-05:00

What a person does is the visible evidence of what is person is.

The above quote I felt was powerful in my CBS notes on Romans.

A Broken Record

2008-10-05T09:24:00.001-05:00

I have been battling a cold the past few days. Dave unfortunately has also contracted it as of this morning. It is tiring/discouraging having multiple colds. My throat is sore at night with this cold. Sleep is affected.

This weekend was good even with a cold. The boys each played their respective games great! Cole scored his first ever goal in soccer. I didn't get to see this feat. I heard it was wonderful. I stayed home while Carter caught up on his sleep. Friday night he attended a lock-in at church with his fellow Sunday school friends. As for Carter's feat he had his first "in the park home run" last night at his fall ball game. Cole, Stuart and I were at the schools fall picnic. Yes, I missed both feats. Discouraging.

Hope your weekend is going well.

I have my next MRI on Tuesday morning.

k-

Information for you

2008-09-30T14:26:00.000-05:00

I'd like to say that I am in full force with the school routine at home. Not so! Hopefully ya'll out there are doing better than I am.

The following are the next dates coming up pertaining to cancer world.

MRI (last one was 3 months ago) - Tuesday, October 7
Next doctors appointment (to discuss MRI) - Friday, October 10
Next chemo cycle (Good nap weekend) - Friday, October 17 - 21

Have a good Tuesday,
k-