I have been reminded - I am fearfully and wonderfully made - I know that full well in Psalm 139. God knew when He formed me in my mothers womb 33 years ago that this was going to happen. Please remember to pray for my mom in the days to come - .
Your voice, O God, thunders in marvelous ways;You do great things which we can't understand. Job 37:5
I am having ups and downs. I am on a major roller coaster ride emotionally. Yes this mountain climb is difficult but, I am looking forward to the repelling part to rest on the cleft of the rock.
My two oldest are really coping well. Thanks for praying for them. I know that they are stepping up to the plate in responsibilities. My second oldest is looking forward to getting the youngest out of his crib in the morning. Lately I have been like chopped liver cuz all he wants is his brother in the morning. My second oldest will then sing our special "Good Morning Brother, Bless the Lord Jesus is King, Jesus is King . . . . . . He's Lord of everything". He has made it clear though that he doesn't want the diaper changing duty. I told him that is clearly alright.
I have been so confirmed in the training process of our boys. They are a delight to my heart. I do not regret any time that I have spent with them. I love each moment from our rock park tadpole adventures to digging for worms in the backyard. Yes my friends call me the Official Field Trip Mommy. I always have a fun place to go with them.
As for my youngest, the last few days he will say "I hold mommy". That is his way of hugging me so tightly around my lower head. It will be hard to reject those hugs in the next few weeks.
My oldest - he just wants to talk about everything. Tonight in bed he quoted Isaiah 41:10, "Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." He memorized that last year. I am so glad he has it hidden in his heart.
My last words will be from a Jars of Clay song:
God will Lift Up Your Head (a spin off of a traditional hymn translated by John Wesley)
Give to the wind your fear
Hope and be undismayed
God hears your sighs and counts your tears
God will lift up, God will lift up, lift up your head
God will Lift Up your Head
Leave to His sovereign sway
To choose and to command
Then shall we wandering on His way
Know how wise and how strong
How wise and how strong
God will lift up your head . . . . . . .lift up your head
Through waves and clouds and storms, He gently clears the way
Wait because in His time, so shall this night
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy, soon end in joy . . .
God will lift up your head.
Wow! literally. I am at a place of peace I truly have never experienced before. Thanks for taking this journey with me. I am humbled. Truly humbled. - Good night I will talk with you soon!
Don't forget to love on my Dave!
Kate
3 comments:
Hey my friend - I hope you got my message today. I can imagine that you are inundated with calls and needing to spend time with your boys and not talking on the phone!! I remember many days/months like that with Libby! I hope you know that we love you and will walk this journey with you.
One of my favorite verses when Libby was in the ICU for weeks on end was Psalm 16:9-11 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will also rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Music really speaks to me, especially in hard times. Nicole Nordeman sings "I Am", which is such an amazing song about how God meets us where we are at every point in our lives. I will look up the words soon and post them here.
We are praying and have asked several prayer warrior friends to join us.
Love, Gracie
Dear Dave and Kate,
We tried to leave you a message yesterday but are new to blogging and somehow it must have been deleted. We heard about your situation from a heritage builders email. We have been praying for you nonstop and will continue to do so. You are such a dear sweet family. Kate, your love for your husband and your boys is so evident, not just in the blog, but in the way that you have always cared for your family. Dave, we were touched by your insights about Jesus weeping over Lazarus. Jesus was also weeping because He loved His friend. You too weep because you love your dear sweet wife so much!!! She is so lovable! We know that God is sovereign. He is so completely trustworthy and faithful. We will pray that you sense His peace and strength in abundance. Thank you for blessing us by allowing us into your thoughts during this difficult time.
"Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord." Psalm 31:24
"O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt you and praise Your Name, for in perfect faithfulness You have done marvelous things, things planned long ago." Isaiah 25:1
"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23
God bless you all!
love,
Tony, Sherry, Jonathan, and Matthew Kinney
Kate,
I don't know you, I barely know your husband through work, but after reading your blog I feel completely connected to you as a sister in Christ. When Dave sent his e-mail out company-wide, I was moved to tears. Since then, I've been praying fervently for you. I believe God is going to work miraculously in you. I've felt His presence so clearly as I've gone before the throne for you. I will continue to seek Him on your behalf. I'm reminded of the parable in Luke 18:2-5, "saying: "There was in a certain city a judge who did not fear God nor regard man. Now there was a widow in that city; and she came to him, saying, 'Avenge me of my adversary.' And he would not for a while; but afterward he said within himself, 'Though I do not fear God nor regard man, yet because this widow troubles me I will avenge her, lest her continual coming she weary me.'" Don't get weary in your prayers to Him. He hears EVERY one! He wants you to continue coming to Him even when you don't feel like He hears you. Don't give up, don't lose heart. He is with you.
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