Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Ciao, Adios, etc...

Today was a rough one. I had wanted to give you a meaningful update but could not due to extreme fatigue. I over did it yesterDAY. After helping at school in the afternoon I was wiped out. Today was the absolute worst day after being on chemo. Oh well... on to the post. It is a little choppy. Bear with my thoughts... chemo brain.

Saying goodbye to chemo doesn't mean goodbye to the cancer fight. I mentioned not long ago that I was somewhat of mixed emotions ending the chemo. Yes, excited but also weary of what is to come. I was totally reminded (I am a slow learner) of God never leaving my side no matter what is to come in the months ahead. Fear did grip me last week.
'Do not fear, for I am with you;

Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'
Isaiah 41:10

It is a reminder that being off chemo, Temodar is one step closer to being known as "in remission". This is another branch in my journey of brain cancer. I am confident He will carry me through. A little fearful but glad, so so glad He is with me.

"I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. John 15:5

Thank you for all YOU did in the past years. I am humbled by the hands of Jesus through you. Prayer, meals, notes/emails of encouragement, watching children, carpool, prayer, friendship, a listening ear and prayer, are a portion of your love to me and my family. I am loved. You are loved.

kate

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kate, my friend, your post brought tears to my eyes...yes, unfortunately, it isn't goodbye to cancer..yet.

Fear...I struggle with it in different areas of my life....Satan wants to bring us down anyway he can...

But, God is victorious!! You are in His arms, He's holding you tight, calling out YOUR name...You are HIS!

Lifting you up to our Heavenly Father, God of Truth.
Love, Sue :)

Jen said...

Praying for your heart as you begin life without chemo- and for the strength of the Lord to sustain you and carry you each day! He is your Helper in time of need! I was so glad to have seen you if only for a short time! Love and hugs- Jen (Italia-friday)

Anonymous said...

Kate, because of our human nature, we all tend to substitute one fear for another, from stage to stage during our lives. I know you have fears, as all of us do. We will always be in prayer for you and your journey with or without chemo. Your courage has amazed all of us thus far, and God will sustain that courage, of that I am sure. Hope your joy abounds every day, as you need it.

Anonymous said...

You know...it's really a poignant thing to receive mail / a package in a haz-mat bag, huh (hazardous materials). Kind of puts a damper on opening the mailbox, I would think. Praying that you bounce back from your over-doing-it...easy to do, being supermom and all (which you ARE). You are in my prayers! L Jo

Anonymous said...

Praise GOD!!! Love you friend, Emily

Anonymous said...

Kate,

I love the way you share your heart when you share some news. We will keep praying for you, my friend.

We leave this morming on our big trip. Please pray for safe travel and for FUN!! I'm pretty sure the "fun" part is a no-brainer!

Love you!
Stacey

Liza's Eyeview said...

I am so glad to read this. so glad. No more chemo is a step closer to in remission Thank you Jesus! Keep fighting and moving forward Kate.

Praying for you,
Liza

Anonymous said...

Kate-
I want you to know that you have ruined many other blogs for me. See, I measure them against your honestly, humor, details, and heart and they just don't measure up. Thanks for sharing with "us" so well.
I am thrilled that you are at this point in your journey! May you never have the need for a haz mat bag to grace the inside of your mailbox again! The Lord is glorified by your reliance on him. He loves you so much. Rest well this week.
Love,
Elizabeth Ward

Anonymous said...

Kate,
What a wonderful milepost. You have travelled through this past year with such grace. I am thankful that God is using you in so many lives (one being me) in the way you share your heart so honestly. We are all blessed.
Praising God for His constant presence in our lives.
LeeAnn

Anonymous said...

Kate,

I was doing some searching on the web and came across your page. I think it is great that you are so willing to share your experience with others. I know what a toll this disease can have on you and your family. Someone very close to me went through the very same thing. I wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prays. Stay Strong!

Angelica
St. Louis, MO

Anonymous said...

Kate,
It has been such a long time since I have written, but not a long time since I have read. I continue to think and pray for you as you have now come to the end of this part of your journey. Just think, God has allowed us all to follow you through your journey with your humbleness as a mom and a journalist. As others have said, you have done it so well and we all hope that you continue to keep us updated. God will grant you the peace you need, just ask and you will receive, as you already know.
God is good, I believe this, always have, even through loosing a family member,and allowing another to live.
Stay strong Kate!

Judith~mother of Chase

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