Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Eye fatigue & dreams

I have been up since 4:30 this morning tossing and turning. I went to bed at 9 pm last night due to eye fatigue. I hadn't had a nap yesterday for I was trying to keep up with the house duties. When doing so I crash by 9 pm. The boys and I had a great time at the pool yesterday eating pizza and conversing with friends. I am going to miss the freedom of summer. It is coming to an end all too soon.

As for the pool yesterday, without a life jacket Stuart jumped in the pool. I clearly did not give him permission. He was holding onto a kickboard but all the same my heart leaped. He was able to get his head up to the water level. I immediately jumped in and reprimanded him. Ohhh! He is a good swimmer but disobedience at the pool is not tolerated. I think I instilled some fear into this non fear water baby. I do hope. After that episode and some time out of the pool I decided to do some practice runs of him jumping into the water to me. He did great! He was able to pull himself up to take a breath. From a close distance he was able to swim to the ladder. For the first time his pool eyes were opened to the wonderful world of goggles as well. He thought it was fun to see things under the water so clearly.

I am also up early this morning due to Cole having a bad dream. He came in crying at 5:15. I was able to pray with him and ask him what the dream was about. All I got out of it was that him and his friend, Luke along with Dad were near water and something about a stingray. After asking if someone was hurt in his dream he ended up crying more saying that Stuart died. My heart ached to hear him cry about his brother's death in his dream. I reminded him that it was only a dream and that Stuart is sleeping soundly in his room. Of course, after that jolting time with Cole I wasn't able to go back to sleep. It was time to read my Bible. I was reminded that dreams seem so real. It brought back the time that I studied Daniel. To this day I vividly remember a terrible dream I had about Carter many years back. I also was reminded early this morning the tenderness of Cole and how I desire so much for me not to leave this earthly home till the boys are older. Seeing them cry about death is no fun for me. I am crying while posting this. No parent wants to see their child hurting.

Please pray for Cole today. Also pray for my right eye. It seems I am having more fatigue and weird sensations on the right back side. Not sure if it is my nerves growing back like Dave proposes. I do hope that is the case. I will make more of an effort to rest during the day. Also pray for little Stu to listen and obey with his heart.

The LORD is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid : . . . Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.
Psalm 27: 1,3

Off to make zucchini muffins for breakfast.


Laura Joback said...

That passage holds great meaning for me, Kate! It is actually the passage that MY dad taught me as a youngster (probably 2nd or 3rd grade) when I would have nightmares. We had just moved to St. Louis & I had a lot of upheaval in my life & would wake up crying and afraid a lot. Dad taught me that particular passage to me in English and in Hebrew b/c he had just started studying it in seminary at Covenant. What a small world that God would put that particular passage on your heart today. Maybe it's the "had a nightmare" or "don't fear" passage for children and for parents. It blessed me today, too. Know I still have to catch up w/ you per phone @ the Houston connection. My youngest just woke up from a nap, so I must bolt to attend...from mom to mom: Laura

Anonymous said...

Hi Kate! We had been camping in Michigan and visiting friends who live up there...I've missed reading your blogs. But, Lily's first camping trip was loads of fun...not alot of sleep, but definitely worth it!

Ironically, I had a nightmare last night, too...having to do with Lily. I love that passage of scripture...very calming for me.

Too bad I missed out on your homegrown veggies!! In my "pretend" world, I am a great gardener...I have these dreams of starting to garden...oh well, if I can just get some perenials going. :)

I love the pic of you and Joe! Thanks for the update on him, too.

Love, Sue Stark :)

Pam Mueller said...


Thank you for continually sharing your heart and your family with us. We are praying for you and the boys and all of those many fears. With love and prayers,
Pam and Jeff Mueller

Oldqueen44 said...

Good for you being strict on the pool rules. I will keep you all in my prayers.