Today was a doozie of a day emotionally. I woke up melancholy to start my day. I am just a little disturbed by the redness above my eyebrow. It is not very noticeable to others. My frustration was that the hair loss was enough to tackle emotionally but now I get to have a good sunburn as well. God will be with me with a radiated sunburn as well as the hair loss. This is temporary.
My Bible study group this morning prayed specifically for my trial. I am thankful for them. I actually was discouraging them to pray for just me during the prayer time. I was a little uncomfortable to take all the time thinking that others have important issues going on as well. I was sobbing during most of the prayer. A friend Laura C. was out in the hallway after the prayer time. Thanks to her for allowing me to cry on her shoulder.
Dr. Simpson, radiation oncologist was able to see me today instead of tomorrow since it will already be a packed morning for me. I had some concerns regarding the redness, a nobby bump above my eye and the benefit of 30 treatments over 25. Yes, I tested the waters to see if I could even possibly stop this Friday. Of course, no lengthy discussion was had on that last issue. As for the redness he wasn't concerned. The nobby bump turns out to be saw dust of sorts. Dr. Simpson explained that during surgery when the saw was cutting my skull bone dust can scatter. The bump under the skin is most likely a skull dust of sorts. I am sure there is a cool medical term for it he just didn't give one. He just said "You know what sawdust is?" My comment was "Of course, I grew up on a farm." Who did he think I was some ding dong of a patient? Dr. Simpson is loosening up some. I was a little set back by him in the beginning. I jokingly told some that he is like a Goliath to me. Looking back he is not that bad just a little stiff. There is a softy behind that white lab coat. It is doing him some good to have me as a patient. A little lively discussion about things other than cancer are good. If I do say so myself.
As you know tomorrow is the doctor appointment with Dr. Linette my oncologist at 10:30. Dave & I should have a good grasp on many facets of the chemo concerns we have. Pray as the Lord leads. 9:30 is radiation then bloodwork. Please pray that a date will be set for the next MRI.
I was hoping to spend some time with Joe tomorrow. I guess it will have to wait until Thursday. The lab at Barnes is a little on the slow side. Not real prompt. I will have to go directly to the lab after RT. He told me on Monday that he didn't have such a great Sunday while with family. He stated he is a little depressed. I was sorry to hear that. I asked him about his eye and burns. He wasn't as concerned about them. Thankfully he is eating somewhat better than in the past week.
I better get to bed. My skulldust head needs some rest. - Kate