Doctors Appointment & a Visit

11:45 tomorrow is my doctor's appointment with the results from the MRI. I am so thankful that I am not anxious I actually forgot that the appointment was tomorrow for I had already thought I could go to the zoo with a friend. I think I am experiencing the "peace that passes all understanding". My hope is that it continues into the day tomorrow.

I plan on taking some time earlier in the day to visit a young mom whose eight year old son has been in and out of the hospital battling brain cancer since last October. Please pray for my visit. I want to be a blessing. It won't be easy seeing this boy. From what I know the mom is at the hospital 24/7. I understand she is weary.

Update on my hair: I haven't given one in quite a while. The regrowth is coming in curly and full. Dave and I are in discussion whether or not I should let all the hair grow longer or keep it short till the regrowth catches up.

I'll keep you posted on the MRI results.

Scripture Promises

Dearest Kate, priceless daughter, cherished gem of my heart,

Because you are my daughter, I sent my Spirit into your heart. . .

you are no longer a slave, but a daughter, and also an heir.

Galatians 4:6,7

You are able to hold your head high, Kate,

no matter what happens and know that all is well,

for you know how dearly I love you

and you can feel this warm love everywhere within you

because I have given you the Holy Spirit

to fill your heart with my love.

Romans 5:5

The following verses are two of many cards that a person gave me in January. Each scripture promise that is represented is personalized with my name. I find each one to be very meaningful. These cards are for people going through a rough time in their life. I have heard that the woman who produces these cards prays for each order that she receives.
http://www.keeperscards.com/

September MRI

Today started out with our ten year old dryer shutting down completely. We even switched the circuit breaker thinking that would help. That brought me some laughs. I thought "Hey, this is nothing compared to last fall." Bill's Appliance came by while Aunt Dee Dee stayed with Stuart. That is a long story in itself. Let's just say that she is such a great blessing to me. So unselfish! Love her! OK back to the dryer fiasco. In appliance terms: It ended up that the thermal fuse just needed to be replaced and the filter duct cleaned out. Whatever the case - Many thanks to Bill's Appliance of Ellisville. They covered the cost of the repair and service call. My mom used to be employed there some time ago.

The MRI went smoothly. I actually was quite relaxed listening to an Aaron Shust CD. Thanks for praying. I know that people were praying as it seemed the scan went faster than usual. I'll let you know on Friday the results.

Also I did find my CD that was lost. It was in my van where I had already looked. Go figure. Blame it on the tumor bed. Just thankful I found it as I was a little miffed last night. I am one not known to misplace things.

Here's to dryer blessings along with a peaceful scan.

Update on grandpa & MRI

Grandpa's surgery went well and he is at home resting. The only complication is that one of his legs is not operating. He cannot move it. It is thought by my Mom and Uncle Charlie that it could be one of two things - 1. the anesthesia or 2. a mild stroke during the procedure. We are praying for #1 of course. I would think the surgeon would have picked up on a stroke. Grandpa has a pace maker.

Mom decided it would not be wise for her to leave grandpa at this time tomorrow to stay in our house to be with Stuart during nap time. I agreed. Thanks to Kristie for being willing to watch him. Pray that Stuart will sleep for her. It makes for a long evening and next day for a napless toddler.

Thank you for being with me at this time. I really am ready to have the MRI done for the month of September. I didn't want to reschedule. I am only disappointed that I cannot find a certain CD for the scan. It is one of my favorites that I used during radiation. I had it not long ago and it is no where to be found in the van or home. I did find out that iPod's and MP3 players are not allowed in the scan due to the magnetic fields. The batteries would be ruined and the songs erased. So there goes my great idea of a plethora of songs. I am looking into having a friend putting all my favorite praise songs on a few CD's. I started my favorite list this afternoon.

Dave is at a meeting tonight and I was privileged to put all the boys to bed tonight. Carter asked me at bedtime tonight if at the time of my surgery last November if I ever asked "Why me?" I was open with him and said "absolutely". I then shared that I have come around to saying "Why not me?" It opened up to a good conversation. He is thinking more deeply. Cole asked about why we would go on a special trip if my cancer came back. I responded with "We want to have special family memories with mom in them". I didn't further that conversation. He is sensitive. He already knows that cancer could take my life. I didn't want to remind him this late at night.

Love on your kids if you have any. Have a good evening!

Chat with you possibly late afternoon tomorrow.

Humbled

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue

but with actions and in truth.

1 John 3:18

Check out the following story - http://www.desiringgod.org/DWYL/

Humbled today . . . kate

Chinese Fire Drill & Party

Yesterday the family celebrated grandpa's 88th birthday at Uncle Charlie's farm. Carter, Cole and I drove to join in the dinner celebration. We intentionally left earlier (3:15) so the boys could play with distant cousins. The drive is usually about an hour long. As we approached Eureka off I-44 the fun began. Traffic was backed up. We inched our way for a little while then it totally stopped. After about 20 minutes of no movement I approached the boys with a proposition. I asked if they were up to a chinese fire drill. Carter without hesitation said "Yes!" Cautious Cole clearly stated "No!" So Carter and I did the chinese fire drill. It was so much fun! Now, I can say I have done a drill in the fast lane of I-44. Good thing too because the rain started not long after the fun. Traffic finally let up after about 45 minutes. It was said that the interstate was shut down due to an overturned tractor trailer. We never saw the semi truck. It looked as if it went through some guard rails down into a deep ravine. Haz mat along with other emergency vehicles were at the scene.

We arrived at the dinner celebration right on time at 5 pm. Lots of laughter and memories were made. Grandpa seemed to enjoy himself. He received many cards with a big jar of mixed nuts and a hat. He had a good day.

My grandpa is so special to me. I think I wrote in the blog about the many "poppers" (kisses) he gave me while growing up. I also loved spending time with him while he cut down firewood. I would try to show him how strong I was lifting the huge stumps for him to split. He will attest that they were very large to this day. I love him so. He has surgery tomorrow (Monday) morning. It is always a higher risk having an eldery patient with surgery. Please pray that it goes smoothly without complications. Pray for the surgeon hands. Please pray also for grandpa's recovery. It will be at least a month before he feels better. Mom will be tending to his needs.

Thanks to all of you for praying in advance for my MRI on Tuesday at 1:15 pm.

Here's to fun chinese fire drills and a great grandpa!

To encourage others

Encourage one another and build each other up.

1 Thessalonians 5:11

Doctor update

Good Morning!

Happy 88th Birthday Grandpa !

I took the time last night and started reading the first two chapters of I Kings. I am excited to see what is in store for me at CBS in the next year. What a soap opera with Adonijah, King David and Solomon. What trickery Adonijah was doing. He was so sly. I guess I have read some of this before now - WOW it is really alive now. I have also started to read the book More Than A Carpenter by Josh McDowell. It is a significant part of my husband, Dave's testimony. I want to be able to share in knowing what it says. I regret not reading it before now in our 11 years of marriage. (FYI - The blog doesn't allow me to underline for titles of books.)

I was laying in bed last night remembering that I have failed to update ya'll in regards to my new doctors appointment when I will receive the results from my Tuesday MRI. It looks as if my appointment will be on Friday the 14th at 11:45 am. Dr. Needles was out of town till then.

I will have my MRI this coming Tuesday the 11th around 1:15.

Cannnot Resist

Daddy and Stuart

A very normal Carter

Great picture Cole

Here I come, Carter!

I couldn't resist showing you the pictures from Labor Day Monday. I love each one in a unique way. It really shows their personality. Stuart continues to ask when we can go to the pool. He doesn't understand the idea of not being able to go when it is still so hot outside. I have to concur with him on that one. So who made the rule about Missouri pools closing on Labor Day weekend? It is hot into a good portion of September. Am I right?

An update on my doctors appointment that was to happen two days after my MRI. I just received a postcard stating that Dr. Needles needs to cancel my appointment on the 13th and to reschedule. I am desiring it is just for a later time that day. I prefer not to wait till Friday if I don't have to for finding out the results. It isn't agony but I would rather know sooner than later.

Yes for those of YOU who are wondering . . . the lady fish (some call her the UFO) is still swimming high and mighty in the tank. The baby fish made a surprise visit the other day. I have yet to see it again. It likes to live under the decorative rocks.

Thanks for journeying with me. I delight in knowing others care.

To serve

"But even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve,

and to give his life as a ransom for many."

Mark 10:45

3 Men and a Lady

A great set of men coming into the world.

Pray as Dave and I train them.

Ending with a Splash!

Summer has ended!

Today was a fun filled day at the pool and beyond. As a family we enjoyed a picnic lunch at the pool. Carter was privileged to push me into the pool. He has been dying to do that all summer long. Once home for Stuart's nap the older men of the family went to the driving range. Tales from the range are yet to come.

I have less than two weeks till my next MRI. Pray for peace during the scan. They allow one personal CD during the procedure. I desire to have a MP3 player or an iPOD for the December MRI. It would help the time go by with a plethora of songs. My sister, Jean (aka: Dee Dee to the bloggers) has what she coins her generiPOD from Wal-Mart. It doesn't hold as many songs as the real deal and is less expensive. My birthday is the middle of October so . . . hint hint Dave.

Continue to pray for my growth in knowing Christ more fully this fall. My desire is to be obedient. I continue to say the joy of the Lord is my strength.

Mission trip and Joe update

Our church recently sent a group filled with families to Mississippi to help with the Katrina victims. St. Louis Post Dispatch did a documentary on the trip. May you be blessed.

http://www.stltoday.com/mds/news/html/365

Also an update on Joe from Kay:

"Uncle Joe is home again. He finished his radiation treatments yesterday (8/29) and has already had a much better week with much less dizziness. He continues to lose weight and that is starting to bother him. We are going to make an effort to fix some high caloric, nutritious meals and may have to supplement them with a liquid supplement. He is also going to start getting more exercise. He was not able to get out and walk much in the city. The weather is starting to cool off so that is a plus as well. Thanks to everyone for their prayers."

Fishy Tales from within

Ron Jon is officially - ALIVE! He has surived the overfeeding catastrophe. In fact a new baby fish suddenly appeared the next day but has yet to surface again. I think it has been gobbled up by the adults. I waited to feed the fish for a day due to over blown bellies. I guess the overfeeding brought about the labor pains in the lady fish. All is well in the aquarium.

Stuart still has a great fascination with much adult monitoring to boot. Dave and both agree that he really changed this past week. We will need to stay alert. He is hitting a severe curiosity stage. Which is great with adult eyes watching.

Soccer is starting up in great strides. Carter and Cole respected Kirk teams were put in the "A" bracket. Which makes for lots of excitement as the catholic teams are quite excellent. Cole's coach seems to think that his team was put in the wrong bracket. It was the other Kirk team that earned the "A" bracket last year. There was only one big team last year. Cole's team is a whole new team consisting of homeschoolers and Covenant kids. I do hope they can bump them down a bracket. I think Cole would enjoy a few more wins then losses. This team is the first time we have played with them. The last few years we have played for Twin Oaks.

With soccer starting it is reminding me of last fall. A year can fly by so quickly. So grateful for my current health. God is merciful.

2nd day of school & Dennis the Menace

First day of school 2007

Carter 3rd & Cole 2nd grade

Yesterday was the first day of school and everything went very well. Cole's "high" from the classroom was recess and his teacher giving out chocolate from Germany. Carter's was high on everything. Not drugs, though. I had to make that one clear for the previous sentence could be taken really out of context! He kept saying that his teacher, Mrs. Lee is "sweet, really sweet". He continued on to say "she is a good teacher for me". Both comments from each boy brought much delight to my heart.

On to today . . . Dennis the menance resides in the home as of this morning. Today was chapel for all parents and grandparents to attend at 8:30 this morning. Everything was flowing pretty fine until Stuart started to eat his pancakes. I was cooking more pancakes with my back turned to the table. The boys just used their pure maple syrup and it was still on the table. In no time at all Stuart aka: Dennis the menace poured the rest of the bottle onto his two pancakes thoroughly soaking them. He then said "I poured the syrup, Mommy." I whipped my head around to confirm he did just that. So thankful the bottle was only half full. Syrup was all over his hands, arms and legs. After transfering the dripping pancakes to a clean plate he gladly ate up the sugared ones. Yuck to me but a delight to him as he usually doesn't get syrup on his pancakes.

Keep in mind it was 7:49 am and I needed to leave the house by 8:15 for chapel. Time for a speedy bath. Stuart was cleaned off in seconds flat with no time to spare and changed into his clothes for the day. He decided he wanted to stay in the bathroom to watch the fish. I approved. Later to find out that was a mistake. I ran to blow dry my hair. I started to wonder why Stuart wasn't at my legs. He is going through a big "Be around mommy at all times stage". I turned off the blow dryer and called for him asking him where he was. I hear a voice. "I feeding the fish, Mommy." I bolt to the bathroom to find the tank FULL of floating fish food. Aghhhhhhh! He had climbed up to reach the food with the stool. I did my best to scoop out the floating food. Prayed that the fish wouldn't die till I returned home to clean out the tank. Out the door I was at 8:16 am. with makeup on. Whew!

Upon returning home the two older fish Ron Jon and his wife (not sure of the name) were swimming low in the tank. Not usual for them. Stuart willingly "helped" me clean out the tank. At the end while in the tub, he joyfully ran the water with all his clothes on. I had already filled the tank and at this point didn't care. I can changed his clothes. He was having a grand ole time.

At this moment "Dennis" is charging up his batteries. I have never seen him be more curious. Ron Jon is not coping well in the newly cleaned tank. Life on the second day of school has been eventful. Hopefully it won't end with a fish loss.

Me and my buddies want to go to school, too!

Update on Joe's dizziness

An email update on Joe from Kay.

"He did not get to have his radiation on Friday, the machine was not functioning properly. I will take him back to Hope Lodge tomorrow (Sunday) and he will have his treatment on Monday and Wednesday - if the machine is working again. No more dizziness since he has been home. I think a lot of it was anxiety."

Many thanks to all of you for not just praying for me and my family but also for Joe. Cancer is so far reaching. It affects not just some but many. It is so hard emotionally and physically. I am so glad I have Jesus.

Lake of the O Memories

Carter's catch
Goofin' around in the not so hot tub

Cole and Stuart
The marshmellow robber!

Hello All,

We have been gone since Tuesday for one last family memory making trip. A previous coworker of Dave's has a wonderful lake home at the Lake of the Ozarks. She insisted we try to go to her home for some getaway time. We had such a great time of eating smores, jet skiing, swimming in the not so hot tub, fishing and tubing. Cole was excited about seeing the cool insects. There was even a snake in the water. Yuck for me but pretty neato for the older boys. I prefer not to see the snakes. That is one creature I don't particulary care about.

The plan was to go to the lake house from Tuesday till Friday. We were having such a good time that we ended up staying till today. Good friends of ours came down to join us on Wednesday. The older boys of the group enjoyed an afternoon of ten cent skee ball, go carting and putt putt golf while the toddlers and mommys took a nap. At night the grown ups stayed up late chatting. Last night we watched a movie together. It was fun as it felt like we were teenagers staying up late with laughter and in depth conversations. God stories were exhanged. I am so glad that we had another family with us.

The movie last night was a love story. A great chick flick. It was a tear jerker. I was crying because of the tenderness of the movie then turned to another thought. I was saddened by the fact that I want to grow old with Dave. I love him so. He really is my lover and friend. My prince. I truly mean it. I know there is no guarantee that I will die soon. The opposite is also true. There is no guarantee that I won't. My desire is for my family to have me for a long time. It was a difficult night. I haven't cried like that in a long time. I am a tender reed - a broken vessel.

Once home today I had multiple emails. One was from Kay, Joe's neice. She stated that he had some dizziness on Thursday and one of his sons was taking him to the ER. I will hopefully have an update by tomorrow. Please pray for him as he will be completing his three intense sessions of radiation soon. He is staying in St. Louis at Hope Lodge again.

School is starting this Tuesday for Carter and Cole. Stuart and I will be doing two separate Bible studies this fall. One will be the book study of "Heaven" by Randy Alcorn. I only got to page 55 in my summer reading of the book. I really need some accountability. The other study will be Community Bible Study (CBS) on the Divided Kingdom and the Minor Prophets: I & II Kings, Hosea, Joel, Amos, Obadiah, Jonah, Micah, Nahum, Habakkuk and Zephaniah.

Many thanks to the Loewe family for being such a blessing and allowing us to make family memories at your lake home. Wade and Ramona you know how to have fun. Thanks for joining our family this week. We appreciated the long talks and laughter. Watch out for those scorpions!

Our early morning fisherman, Cole

To rely on God daily

"As you say, the thing is to rely only on God. The time will come when you will regard all this misery as a small price to pay for having been brought to that dependence. Meanwhile . . . The trouble is that relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done."

C. S. Lewis, Letters of C.S. Lewis

A neighbor sent this quote over at the beginning of this trial when we found out that brain surgery was eminent. When asking what we were needing my reply was "tissues". She posted scripture and quotes like the one above on the tissue boxes . I wanted to share it with you today. The latter half of the quote is what strikes me the most.

I guess the positive part of it all is that at least one tissue box is still in use. Whew! Don't want to repeat that time over again any time soon.

Have a great rest of the week! I know we will.

Keeping out of business

A greedy man stirs up dissension,

but he who trusts in the LORD will prosper.

He who trusts in himself is a fool,

but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe.

Proverbs 28: 25-26

Ouch! I have been struggling with pride. This is not a new thing. Since school is starting back up it is easy for me to "stir the pot" so to say in matters that are none of my business. I have made a vow to try and not engage in conversations that are going to lead me to sin. That is just what it is - SIN. I desire to make a new start this fall by encouraging not discouraging, being fully gracious in matters and kind. Please pray that I can do just that. Pray for my heart and eyes to be open. To be able to walk away graciously from a conversation that is not edifying.

Tuesday, September 11 - MRI at 1:15 pm
Thursday, September 13 - 10 am - Dr. Needles consult with results

I want to end with an encouraging verse on worry.

"He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit."

Jeremiah 17:8

Joe & the Country Club

Last night I had wanted to post a blog on Joe and his birthday. Unfortunately I was lacking a nap two days in a row and was exhausted as the evening hours approached. I went to bed by 8:45 last night.

Joe called yesterday to say thanks for the cards. I had sent him a goofy card with a dog on the front. The card read something like this; Happy Birthday to one big POOP! You then open the card and it states; Person Of Outstanding Pedigree! I about fell on the floor with laughter when I opened the card. Carter approved of this one as well for he was shopping with me. I was unsure about sending it but I figure Joe has seen enough in his days and I sure he would chuckle. He did come to find out.

His birthday was a weekend long event. Some of his many children came down to see him on Saturday while his daughter and grandson spent time with him on Sunday. Kay his neice treated him to a steak dinner on his actual birthday. I say he had it made.

So glad he enjoyed the cards. From the looks of my email he should total around 10 cards. Thanks to the many of you that participated. He even read to me some of your comments. Touching!

As for me I am having some little pain in the head and eye. Not enough for tylenol just yet. I am hoping it is due to not enough rest. My next MRI is Tuesday, September 11. Yes, not a great day for our country. I think it's a good day for people to remember to pray not just for the many people who lost loved ones on that terrible day but also for my MRI to be clear. I will have the results Thursday the 13th. Please pray I don't have a major breakdown prior to seeing Dr. Needles. I have been emotionally ok the past few months. The only sad time I have had lately happened on Monday. I was thinking about my funeral due to a radio show remembering a fun friend that was in this persons life. The radio announcer stated "Everyone should have a ____________ in their life." I couldn't help but ponder my own funeral. Sad but true. I called Dave as he was out of town and my mom. So glad to have them. God is good to me.
Thanks for your continued prayers not just for me but the whole family. We are really enjoying the last days of freedom prior to school starting on Tuesday, August 28. Carter and Cole have made our backyard into a driving range / golf course. I found them the other day with a trowel digging a hole for their golf balls. Not to alarm the neighbors - we use practice balls that look like swiss cheese. Thankfully they don't smell like it. My yard for that matter might look like swiss cheese. Not! Dave stopped the digging. I guess you could say they made up their own Snodgrass Country Club.

I have also found literally 15 paper airplanes throughout the home while cleaning up today. Each boy has a Klutz brand book that tells how to make some awesome planes. It even comes with designed paper. I burnt dinner last night due to being engrossed in making the "headhunter" plane for Cole. You see I just can't multi-task anymore.

A good work has begun

. . . being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you

will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Philippians 1:6

A Birthday Blessing

If you would like to be a blessing in a tangible way. . .

My friend, Joe is having his birthday on August 14. I would love to bless his socks off. Would you consider sending him a birthday card? If so, click on my blog profile and email me that you are interested and I will shoot you an email in return with his address. I hope to mail my card tomorrow (Friday).

The Indiana visit

I think I can knock it down
Aiming carefully for the target
Enjoying God's creation

The Snodgrass men

Cole showin' his moves off the high dive!

Indiana girl cousins are great!
Wild man Carter off the high dive!

All smiles on the bed - Love the toes Stu!

You can tell who the extroverts are in the family

From slip n slide, driving the farm gator, feeding the horses, holding Charlie cat, lack of sleep due to excitement, diving off the high dive and eating . . . we had a good long weekend of visiting Dave's family in northern Indiana. The boys enjoyed time with their cousins, Lexi and Jaelyn. I am sure we wore out Grammy and Pop Pop Snodgrass. Life is much different with three young boys hanging around. Stuart especially enjoyed the horses. He would take any chance he could get to run to the barn and feed Aramis and Joey the "geen" hay (aka: green hay). The horses didn't mind one bit. (No pun intended.) While in their stalls they would careen their necks to see which one Stuart would choose to feed. Shhhh, don't tell Grammy.

While visiting Dave's mom on Saturday we swam at the public pool. Everyone loved jumping off the diving board. Yes, even Stuart did some jumps with his lifejacket on. Only the older two jumped off the high dive. Mema had us over for dinner that night. Thank you Mema. It was good to see you. The kids enjoyed wiffle ball in the backyard against the adults. Go figure - the adults lost.

The only dilemma for the weekend was Stuart's left eye. His eyeball itself is fine but the outer part has been rubbed raw. It didn't help to have him touching Charlie cat along with everything else a toddler touches while being in the country. Dave and I were constantly washing his hands. I called on Saturday to make an appointment for Monday at 9 am. Dr. McKinney surmised that it's most likely is an allergy of some kind. Stuart started having symptoms prior to leaving on Thursday morning and it escalated while being away. Benadryl, eye drops and hydrocortisone made some difference though. So off to see the pediatrician early in the morning . . .

Hoped you enjoyed the Indiana visit pics!

Eye fatigue & dreams

I have been up since 4:30 this morning tossing and turning. I went to bed at 9 pm last night due to eye fatigue. I hadn't had a nap yesterday for I was trying to keep up with the house duties. When doing so I crash by 9 pm. The boys and I had a great time at the pool yesterday eating pizza and conversing with friends. I am going to miss the freedom of summer. It is coming to an end all too soon.

As for the pool yesterday, without a life jacket Stuart jumped in the pool. I clearly did not give him permission. He was holding onto a kickboard but all the same my heart leaped. He was able to get his head up to the water level. I immediately jumped in and reprimanded him. Ohhh! He is a good swimmer but disobedience at the pool is not tolerated. I think I instilled some fear into this non fear water baby. I do hope. After that episode and some time out of the pool I decided to do some practice runs of him jumping into the water to me. He did great! He was able to pull himself up to take a breath. From a close distance he was able to swim to the ladder. For the first time his pool eyes were opened to the wonderful world of goggles as well. He thought it was fun to see things under the water so clearly.

I am also up early this morning due to Cole having a bad dream. He came in crying at 5:15. I was able to pray with him and ask him what the dream was about. All I got out of it was that him and his friend, Luke along with Dad were near water and something about a stingray. After asking if someone was hurt in his dream he ended up crying more saying that Stuart died. My heart ached to hear him cry about his brother's death in his dream. I reminded him that it was only a dream and that Stuart is sleeping soundly in his room. Of course, after that jolting time with Cole I wasn't able to go back to sleep. It was time to read my Bible. I was reminded that dreams seem so real. It brought back the time that I studied Daniel. To this day I vividly remember a terrible dream I had about Carter many years back. I also was reminded early this morning the tenderness of Cole and how I desire so much for me not to leave this earthly home till the boys are older. Seeing them cry about death is no fun for me. I am crying while posting this. No parent wants to see their child hurting.

Please pray for Cole today. Also pray for my right eye. It seems I am having more fatigue and weird sensations on the right back side. Not sure if it is my nerves growing back like Dave proposes. I do hope that is the case. I will make more of an effort to rest during the day. Also pray for little Stu to listen and obey with his heart.

The LORD is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid : . . . Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

Psalm 27: 1,3

Off to make zucchini muffins for breakfast.

Dave's the man!

The score was five to three at the bottom of the last inning. The Chesterfield blue team was down by two runs against Covenant. They were competing for the chance to play against the #1 seated Chesterfield red team in the championship game. There were two outs and the bases were loaded. Dave Snodgrass was up to bat. He hit a line drive over the centerfielders glove. A triple! A triple! Go crazy everybody! Three runs were scored. Blue won the game!

Unfortunately the red team won the championship game by two runs. Many of the men were joking around about the trophy ceremony asking when it will be during tomorrow's church service.

It was said "Today is a sad, sad day for Covenant for they have won the tournament for the past couple years." Sorry Wade of Covenant, Dave is the man.

Visiting the two "B's"

So you have been anticipating the update on my day . . . .

This morning I was first privileged to see my cousin Luke and his bride, Nicole's first baby boy. One day old Keagan is oh so cute. I really don't remember my boys ever being that tiny. Well, Carter wasn't that tiny because he was a good 9 lbs. 9 oz.. Yes, you heard it right! Keagan weighed in at 9 lbs. 3 oz.. A big baby but, I still think he looks so small. Carter was huge. (Maybe his head was just bloated from me having so much water weight. I had gained a whoppin 54 lbs. during my first pregnancy with severe pitting edema.) Whatever the case - children grow up too quickly. Savor every moment for they really are a blessing from the Lord. Congratulations Luke and Nicole!
After the baby visit I went on my way to see my buddy, Joe. His casting appointment was completed sooner than expected so Kay and him were waiting for me to arrive. I welcomed him with some homegrown tomatoes, cucumbers and squash. He looks great and fiesty as ever. His coloring and weight is very good. We strolled over to Applebee's to have lunch. Two of his sons joined as well. The conversation was lively. I really was able to learn more about Joe and his family. All the antics a family of eight kids can provide living in the city of St. Louis. It was later that Joe and his wife moved to Bonne Terre, Missouri.

One of the first things Joe mentioned about the first sixty miles on their journey up to St. Louis today is that he drove! He was very proud of that fact. He later mentioned it to his boys and they joked with him asking him if they needed to give him lessons. I think they were a little surprised.

Joe will start his stereotactic radiation the week of August 20. It will be scheduled on a Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Kay mentioned that she will be in contact with the nurse case manager to see if he can stay at the Hope Lodge during that week. ON a funny note: Joe refers to me as Peacoat Kate. I mentioned to him that this radiation session he will not have a peacoat. He laughed. After saying our goodbyes I was able to chat with my Siteman parking attendant friend, Tomyra.
Today was a good day. Seeing a baby and my buddy. The two "B's".

All is well

Carter is a GO for camp tomorrow. He is very excited to say the least. He has been asking to go to camp since last year and has been pestering us for quite some time. The oldest has to pave the way for the siblings to come. Although Cole made it very clear last week that he has no desire what so ever to attend camp. I know he means it too. He is not one for spending the night even at grandmas house with a cousin. He likes the comforts of home. He even has difficulty sleeping in our home outside his bed. When we have company it is Carter who has to go to Cole's room to sleep on the floor. "Continuity is good" would be Cole's motto. He is not one for change. At all!

Great News! Cole was feeling better yesterday with no fever. He went with Daddy to the Cardinals game. They just arrived home a few minutes ago. The Cubs were spanking the Cards. Bummer! It seems that the Cards are hot one night then the next they fizzle. We do enjoy when the Cards score 6 or more runs in a game. The next day Mobil sells coffee, soda and slushies for 25 cents each. I am sure you know what the boys go for. Stuart will even mention "I want a slushie" when I drive by a Mobil on preceding non six run game days. Sorry Stu.

I was able to call Joe prior to my nap today. He sounded good. I asked him if he was discouraged. He mentioned that he was in the beginning for the oncologist first stated that he was going to just remove the tumor in the lung area. Then when Joe went in to discuss it at a further date the doctor changed his tune to stereotatic radiation. To say the least Joe was not happy. I won't divulge his thoughts. All is to say is that the doctor called him to apologize and to let him know that at his age recovery from surgery is not as easy to do.

More great news is that his right eye that had the surgery is doing much better. If you can remember it was his right eye that was his better eye prior to surgery. Later he was informed that he could be considered legally blind if it didn't improve. Well, it has improved so much as to say that Joe is going to get another eye exam and take it to the license bureau. Write that one done as a definite answer to prayer. Carter will be thrilled to hear it as well. He has been so faithful to pray for Joe and his eye.

I am so looking forward to seeing Joe on Friday. I mentioned to him that we should go out for lunch at Bread Company since it is right across the street from Siteman. He said he is at the mercy of Kay his neice. I told him I am sure she wouldn't mind. He agreed.

This is totally not on the subject . . . My dad, known as Poppyto the boys has a garden of goodies that he has been delivering on an ongoing basis the past few days. We are up to our ears in produce. Last year Carter and Cole went door to door selling the tomatoes, squash and cucumbers. This year we are not finding the time to do it. They were able to go up our street but it was during the day and not very many people were home. I was able to shred the zucchini and freeze for muffins to be made at a later time. Yummy, I can smell it now.

. . . if you know where we live come on by and pick up some produce on our front porch. Look for the red wagon. We have cucumbers, three varieties of squash, 2 fresno peppers, zucchini and lots of tomatoes. There is even some yellow tomatoes which are known to be less acidic.

Again thanks for not just reading this blog but taking the time to pray. God hears our prayers. This blog is proof of that. God is good.

Reminiscing to tears

I had an afternoon yesterday of some weeping. Carter and Cole were watching the movie Barnyard during Stuart's nap. In between cleaning the kitchen and folding laundry I sat and watched the first portion of it with them. A certain scene in the movie made me weepy. The main leader cow, Ben who "adopted" Otis is a kind cow. He mentored and parented Otis well. There was a sweet scene of them talking on the hill and Ben recalling Otis as a young child. In short, Ben was killed by the coyotes while protecting the chickens in a storm. The preceding moments in the movie moved me to tears. Otis was remembering back at a young age - Ben fishing with him. I was recalling the coming moments of my boys reminiscing their memories of me. They didn't see me cry. Carter was laying on the floor in front of me while Cole was behind me on the couch. I went outside to the back patio table and finished my sadness while shaded under the umbrella. I just spoke to God and relayed my concerns along with my desires.

It seems that any story or movie clip that I see where a child has a lose of a parent I am moved to tears because it hits so close to home. It even happened while watching the previews of Ratatouile a few weeks back.

I called Dave to let him know what kind of afternoon I was having. He was so tender with his words and encouraged my heart. He had a Trader Joes run after work and surprised me with a bouquet of red roses.

Last night I had the worst right eye ache. Enough for me to take Tylenol. I guess the crying and no nap did me in. I went to bed by 9 pm.

Pray for a low key day of finalizing Carter and his packing for camp. I hope to find time today to call Joe.

Disclaimer: The Barnyard movie is Ok. Some disrespect is in it but the overall theme is good. Be sure to read all about it on www.dove.org.

Joe, JAM Camp & Fever

This Friday Joe will have his cast made for the upcoming stereotactic radiation treatment he will receive. His appointment is at 10 am and will last for a couple of hours. I am grateful to soccer Gram and her willingness to watch Cole and Stuart so I can be at Siteman. Carter will be away at J.A.M. camp for the very first time. (J.A.M. stands for Jesus and Me.) The theme at camp is Jesus is my super hero. The camp is for two nights and three days for rising third and fourth graders. Just enough for Mommy. Probably not long enough for him. Already have my "I miss you" card ready to mail tomorrow.

After reading what I posted last on Joe I really didn't make it clear that the new cancer spot found in his lungs is a totally different cancer than what was in his ear. I guess that is a praise that the ear cancer did not spread but all the same it sure must be discouraging for Joe. I haven't phoned him yet. I plan on making a call prior to Friday to check in with him and his neice, Kay. I was preoccupied today with Cole. He was up at 3:15 this morning with a "headache". Throughout the day he had a fever of 102. Thankfully Tylenol helped. I along with him are praying it is a short virus. He was crying earlier this morning for he is looking forward to his Daddy date on Wednesday eve to watch the Cardinals play the Cubs. Dave ended up getting two free tickets from work. Also praying that Carter does not get the virus prior to leaving for camp on Thursday morning. Major disappointments will be had by all if this virus is not out of the home lickety split!

Just a little update on my cancer saga. . .

. . . My hair continues to grow yet it also continues to fall out. Not complaining - just seems odd that it continues to fall after my completion of radiation in early February. I also think I am going to have a cowlick right in the very front. I think it is related to the skin being put back after surgery. The hair folicles were probably turned. There is a good possibility that my new hair growth will have some curl to it. Not surprising as I have some wave underneath in the back. It will be a challenge though having curl in just the radiated section. What fun I will have in styling it.

. . . I still take a nap every other day. Not waking up as early in the morning. Yippeee!

Continue to lift up Joe and his new diagnosis. Praying that I will be a blessing.

Looking forward to Friday,
kate

Joe's Discouraging News

Today I was in contact with my friend Joe's neice, Kay via email to ask how he was doing. She called me late tonight to let me know of his condition. I am typing it to the best of my understanding in the conversation I had. She gave me permission to post this on the blog.

He had a PET scan as a follow up to see if any cancer from his ear (squamous cell) had spread to any other parts of his body. The scan showed a "hot spot" on the lower left margin of one of his lungs I think she said left. Don't hold me to it. A biopsy was performed last week Thursday. It is adeno carcinoma a grandular cancer. The hot spot is a primary tumor yet not a positive type of cancer due to being grandular and high risk of spreading.

The plans are to prepare him for stereotactic radiation. He is to return to Siteman next Friday the 27th to have a "band" or body cast made for his abdomen. It will shape to his body.

Stereotactic radiosurgery uses sophisticated computerized imaging to precisely target a narrow X-ray beam. Using this method, it is possible to effectively destroy small tumors or close down abnormal blood vessels.

This technique, which is accurate to one millimeter or less, does not require surgery and can be done on an outpatient basis. Radiation can be delivered using either the frameless CyberKnife, or a framed system.

Stereotactic radiosurgery includes the participation of both the surgical and radiation oncology team who work together to evaluate and treat each patient. Please see the following web site for more information -

http://www.varian.com/comp/2004/article02.html

Joe's radiation will be performed on three consecutive days. It is a precise radiation that will be given in huge amounts - equivalent to 33 radiation treatments. I do not have the dates of his treatments for Kay did not have it. I am sure once they make his body cast they have to set up the computer and beams just like they did for my radiation. I will keep you posted once I have information.

It is my desire to go down to Siteman on Friday to see him or have them over for lunch or dinner. I am waiting to hear what time is his fitting appointment. It is supposed to take about two hours.

First pray for Joe. Pray also for me as I am discouraged for him. My heart aches. I literally am down after hearing this. He is my friend. He was a true blessing to me during the whole radiation time period. A great companion. I am thankful that his oncologist for his ear ordered a PET scan otherwise this new cancer could have gone undectected for some time. Also thankful to hear that his ear tissue is finally healing correctly after they removed some RT ear neucrosis (dead tissue).

For those of you who are new to this blog and want to know more about my friend Joe be sure to check out the archive section to the right. Please look at the December 29 post "Joe" and the January 11 post "More on Joe".

Many thanks to a little mouse who prompted me to contact "my friend".
You are a sweetheart! I miss you too!

Stuart on the mend

Today Stuart was able to see Dr. McKinney. You know it is your third child when you wait almost 10 days prior to discussing it with the pediatrician. Here is the run down of all that has happened to precious Stu.

Thursday, June 5 - woke from nap with crying that wouldn't stop for a long time. He mentioned his "mouth hurts".

Friday, June 6 - raspy voice - assuming a sore throat - lasted 3 - 4 days turned into a cold with a wet cough -

One day early in the week his bowels were . . . hmmm . . . not normal.

This Saturday - fever 102 axillary with cold & wet cough

Sunday - stayed home from church with Dad with Saturdays symptoms yet fever was lower

Monday - No fever and congestion was much better. He seemed much better this morning and I wasn't going to take him in yet, nurse Camille thought it best for Dr. McKinney to see him.

He checked ears, lungs and Camille swabbed for strep. All came back fine. Stuart seems to have a sinus infection. Amoxicillin should do the trick. Dr. McKinney usually doesn't give an antibiotic for a sinus infection but "since it has been going on for some time" he decided to kick it out of Stuart sooner. I knew it wasn't the ears and didn't think it was strep (of course I have been wrong about that one).

Glad to have Stu hopefully on the mend.

Always with You

Lately Stuart has been wanting the same books each nap and bed time. He has a good rotation of favorites. This past week the two favorites have been Little Red Hen and Little David & Big Goliath. He always mentions that the other animals weren't willing to "help him"(the red hen). In the David and Goliath flap book it shows David and his mighty trust in the Lord in a huge circumstance. I am always amazed each time I read it the trust he had in God. Me of little faith. The book ends with -

David knew God would help him. Even if you are small and have a big problem, you don't have to worry. God helped David and he will help you. He is always with you.

Jesus promises: "You can be sure that I am always with you."

Matthew 28:20

I love knowing God is always with me! What comfort.

May your Sunday be one of praise to God Almighty. I am looking forward to serving in childrens ministry as I haven't done in a long, long time. Each time I serve I am so energized with the kids. I really loved serving this past Tuesday for the Twin Oaks VBS. The rising first graders were a delight to my heart. I unfortunately couldn't serve on Thursday due to Stuart being sick. If you think of it - pray for his fever and body. He is miserable. I might be visiting Dr. McKinney on Monday if Stuart isn't any better.

Little David & Big Goliath by Tracy Harrast Illustrations by Carl Moore

No Greater Love

This past Sunday in church was a special song written by Rachael Lampa. It touched my heart to the point of me being teary eyed. I am so amazed day to day the love that God bestows to me of all people.

Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LxpQ0lSv7w

No Greater Love

Before I knew your name
You knew my every breath
Before I found my way
You knew my every step
Before I knew everything that I need
You gave it all to me

(Chorus)
No greater love than this
That you should lay down your life
For someone such as me
I'd spend a life time wondering why
The beauty of heaven is here in my heart
And I know there can be
No greater love
Than this

I never understood
How merciful love could be
Until I felt His flame
Light every part of me
And I would give everything that I am
Cause I have been saved
Yes I have been saved

(Chorus)

Oohh...

The beauty of heaven is here in my heart
And I know there can be
No greater love
For someone such as me
No greater love
Than this

Fun with our cousin

Nice foot, Carter!

This week has been spent with cousin Joe. The boys love having an extra guy in the house during the day to play with. We have spent some of our time at the library and pool but mostly they have had fun attending Summer Bible Camp at Twin Oaks church. The theme this year has something to do with racing. I served on Tuesday and was privileged to make a pine wood derby car with my group of first graders. The boys mentioned that they will be racing their decorated cars this Friday.

Here is to summer fun with cousins! - kate

7-7-07 = 8

This past Saturday was the 8 month post op anniversary from brain surgery. Wow! It is hard to believe to this day that I had an operation on my brain of all places. All I have to do is look into the mirror to see the reminder though.

I thought I would give you the run down of what has gone on in the last eight months.

Had hair then didn't have hair. Now have short hair and even shorter hair.
THE END.


Seriously the hair ordeal was a big hurdle for me for all of you who have been faithful to follow this whole time you already know this to be true.

Ok, here is a summary of the past eight months. It has been one BORING winter/ spring. ha ha ha! I am amazed looking at all the dates and seeing God's faithfulness unfold each time. I praise Him!

Thursday, October 19 – unusual headache began at a pain rate of 9+, not like normal migraines in the past. In the following days, headaches occurred up to 5 times a day for 10-15 minutes in duration.

October 24 – adjusted by chiropractor thinking the pain was from reverse curvature of C1 & C2.
* Pain did subside a little after adjustment.

October 25 – Dr. Stephen Sanders, my primary care physician, examined my symptoms. I did tell him that the headaches were not as intense since the adjustment. I also let him know that I didn’t fill the script for Darvicet since the headaches came on suddenly and lasted only 10 – 15 minutes in duration.

Tuesday, October 31 – intense pain in morning – called Dr. Sanders – he suggested that I have a CT scan performed in the next few days.

Wednesday, November 1 – CT scan w/ contrast at St. John’s Mercy Medical Center.

Thursday, November 2 – Dr. Sanders called to state that I needed to see neurosurgeon, Dr. Thomas Forget, immediately. No appointment needed. Dr. Forget explained that I had swelling in the right frontal lobe of my brain. He also stated that an operation was necessary to take out what is causing the swelling. He gave us a time frame of less than 3 weeks to do the operation. He also encouraged us to seek out a second opinion in the St. Louis area. List of names were given.

Friday, November 3 – MRI performed – After some consideration, my husband, Dave, & I decided to see if the "growth" was an urgent matter or could we really wait the full 3 weeks.

Friday, November 3 cont'd– Directly after MRI a consultation with Dr. Forget occurred. He stated that it looked like a tumor with teardrop shaped water under the growth. He also stated that it wasn’t urgent yet, he had Tuesday, November 7 free for surgery & encouraged me to think seriously about the surgery. He did say that I could NOT wait till after Christmas or he would not continue to be my neurosurgeon.

Tuesday, November 7, 2006 – Craniotomy for resection of brain tumor on right frontal lobe surgery. Stealth MRI performed prior to surgery.

Thursday, November 9 – MRI performed to see post-op results.

Saturday, November 11 – discharged from St. John’s Mercy Medical Center.

Thursday, November 16 – staples in head removed by Dr. Forget.

Friday, November 17 – consulted with hematologist / oncologist, Dr. Leonard White. No confirmed second report from Barnes – Jewish (St. Louis) pathology. After visit with Dr. White, it was decided that a second opinion oncologist would be necessary.

Wednesday, November 22 – visit with Dr. Gerald Linette, oncologist with a brain tumor specialty, of Washington University Physicans (Siteman Cancer Center – Barnes Hospital). He explained the tumor pathology report in detail. He encouraged us to go to MD Anderson for a second opinion of possible treatment options. Report from Barnes showed anaplastic oligoastrocytoma with limited gene markers.
Dr. Linette’s suggested treatment plan: Start in 2 weeks
140 mg. Temodar daily for 6 weeks with simultaneous radiation therapy M-F for 6 weeks
Break for 3 weeks
Continue with Temodar at a double dosage 5 days a week on a 28 day cycle for 1 year
MRI scans every 3 months

December 5 – Dr. WK Alfred Yung (MD Anderson – Houston) did a neurological exam & stated tumor was anaplastic astrocytoma not oligoastrocytoma. His treatment plan differed from Dr. Linette.
XRT alone wait (rest) period of 3 wks. Temodar 380 mg for 1-2 years

December 14 – MRI at Barnes for RT set up purposes mainly

December 27 – started RT 54 Gy (IMRT) with 140 mg Temodar – Dr. Joseph Simpson overseeing RT

Discontinued Temodar after 7 days into RT due to personal choice – approved by both Dr. Linette and Dr. Simpson

February 9, 2007 – completed 30 Radiation treatments (RT) - PARTY DAY!

March 2 – first MRI with contrast since RT. No visible signs of growth, cavity bed is smaller and rim around bed is brighter.

March 14 – follow up with Dr. Linette and Dr. Simpson
Dr. Linette suggested a MRI in one month (April 11) then in two months (June) afterwards a MRI should be every 3 months indefinitly. He is fine with waiting till the growth appears to start the Temodar.

March 22 – consultation with Dr. Burton Needles, St. Johns Cancer Care Center

April 11 – MRI scan at Siteman – Scan is clear!

June 11 – MRI scan at St. Johns off site

June 13 – Dr. Needles reports scan is clear! compared to 11/9/06

June 25 – Consultation with radiation oncologist, Dr. Julie Mai, St. Johns Cancer Care Center

June 26 – Baseline Eye Exam performed by Dr. Bruce Cohen of Siteman / St. Lukes

September 11, 2007 - MRI to be performed through St. John’s

I still to this day have soreness at the site of the radiation / surgery. I cannot sleep with my head leaning on the pillow. The eye exam showed no signs of radiation damage. I am thankful for many things. One of which is the loving support of my husband. He is dynamo.

I feel better today minus the soreness than I ever have. I attribute it all to God. I am sure my change in diet and all the non conventional pills that I take have also helped.

My life has been altered forever since having been diagnosed with brain cancer. It was a much needed change. God is good even in the refinement. Continue to pray for 50 years of living cancer free. - Kate

The weekend visitors

Can Stuart's rear end be any higher?

This weekend we loved our visit from Pop Pop and Grammy Snodgrass. They arrived on Friday afternoon just in time for dinner and Dave's softball game. The team lost by one point for your information. Bummer!

Saturday was fun! The boys enjoyed stockpiling on Pop Pop (Stuart called it "Get Pop Pop"). The older boys along with myself went with them to see the new movie Ratatouille on the big screen. Dove Foundation http://www.dove.org/ gave it a good rating. We look first at their website prior to seeing a certain movie on or off the big screen. They were completely right on. We ended the day with many rounds of a card game called spoons.

Of course we had a blast with our Indiana relatives. Only wish that the stay was longer or they lived closer.

Hope your weekend was great as well. Unfortunately I didn't get a great pic of Grammy to post.

Carter are you looking for something?

Community Group Relationships

Tonight was spent with our longtime friends the Haguewood and Pott families. We have known each other since pre-kid days. Dave and I facilitated a community group in our home for many years. Both families were part of that community group studying God's word together. It was a wonderful time of in depth learning and living life together. From adoptions, deaths, births and family learning it was great sharing our lives together. The deep relationships continue to this day. All the families started having kids at the same time. It was great to learn infant parenting together as well. Even though we all attend different churches now, we continue to get together around July 4th and Christmas (Happy Birthday Jesus party). I love them dearly.

The gals of the group try to get together at least 3 times a year for a "girls night out". We all are at different stages in our life - from homeschooling to one working full time. Lots to talk about. Marcia and Patty were the gals I had dinner with last fall on October 19. The very first day I started having my headaches.

The kids having a blast! Where does the time go?

Independence Day Celebrations

The fam at the fireworks display!
Parade fun! Mom look at my tootsie roll.

Last night was a fun night with our pool pal friends along with the King family. The town of Twin Oaks put on a wonderful display. It is great to have such a close display to our home. They were magnificent! Stuart was mesmerized by the colors.

This morning we enjoyed the Webster parade. It is always fun to see the kids taking in the sights and sounds of a good parade. The Wichts joined in the fun. Ramona and I had our picture taken with a clown. No, it wasn't Wade. It was taken on her camera so I won't be able to post it on todays blog. After the hot parade we took a splash in the pool. Dave had fun getting the kids wet on the side during the adult swim time. When looking at the picture notice Cole with a blue swim shirt. Dave spent most of his childhood at the pool. He tells the boys often of him riding his bike to the pool, eating candy, drinking soda and getting the lifeguards wet in the little town of Wabash, Indiana. Today I am sure it brought back memories.

Today I am grateful for all the family traditions we have. The fourth of July is no different. I am so thankful to God for allowing me to be here for my family. It is a joy to my heart.

Thankful for the freedom we have in the United States.