Yes, I am at home resting - a great place to be. All went well with the younger boys. They were at ease to see "mommy all in tact" (literally in tact). The staples across my head look "scary" to my oldest child but I was able to reassure him that I thought they looked scary too, but they are acting like a zipper for my skin incision. He understood.
It is so nice to be in the comforts of home with the great smells - hand soaps, lotion, baby bubble bath, fresh bed linens, cake baking in the oven, etc. I went into the hospital as one person yet came out as a different person. (to some of you that will be a very good thing) Yes, I am moldable!
Pray that God will soften my heart and tongue / thoughts. I don't always have the best filter - well I guess I do - it is Dave. We are a team!
Some of you are wondering, what to do from here? I ask you to allow Dave and I to be "a team" together. Allow us to be a family. Please pray for us to make the "right" decisions for my "C" (cancer) health and allow us to make these decisions. We ultimately know the "One" who made us so delicately also made the minds of our medical team. We trust them and ultimately trust God to give us wisdom and discernment for treatment options.
Our family landscape has just changed completely. We are the same shrubs (if you will) just positioned in a different place.
I have never had a blog before. It is a wild ride to allow others to read your personal "diary". Never have I been so transparent. I have been personal but not transparent, at least not in this way. Never have I had a lock broken on a diary for the world to read.
Since you have joined us in this adventure and are walking with us, here are some tangible prayer requests that are on my heart:
1. That Dave would be able to multi-task and have the strength, stamina, and patience to do it; taking care of me and the boys, administering my medications, doing laundry, washing dishes, etc; all while holding down his regular work. Also, that Dave would be able to have his own personal time to be able to reflect on everything that is going on and express the normal range of emotions that a spouse would feel in these circumstances.
2. That my mother (soccer gram) and sister (aunt dee dee) would stay healthy and well-rested while they assist our family with daily household needs.
3. That I (and Dave) would be able to get plenty of rest tonight and in the days ahead, especially before treatment begins.
4. That there would continue to be good communication between Dave and I, and that our marriage would be strengthened even further because of this trial.
5. That we would each take time to mediate on God's word and consider all that He is doing through this trial.
6. For our children to be able to process what we tell them about my condition on Sunday (tomorrow).
7. That God would calm my fears regarding having the staples removed from my head this coming Thursday.
We covet your prayers and deeply appreciate your encouragement and support of our family.
P.S. Dave says that typing on our home computer is much easier and faster than on the BlackBerry. His thumbs were getting really sore from that tiny keypad, I was afraid he was going to develop Thumb Tunnel Syndrome!