I have been reminded - I am fearfully and wonderfully made - I know that full well in Psalm 139. God knew when He formed me in my mothers womb 33 years ago that this was going to happen. Please remember to pray for my mom in the days to come - .
Your voice, O God, thunders in marvelous ways;You do great things which we can't understand. Job 37:5
I am having ups and downs. I am on a major roller coaster ride emotionally. Yes this mountain climb is difficult but, I am looking forward to the repelling part to rest on the cleft of the rock.
My two oldest are really coping well. Thanks for praying for them. I know that they are stepping up to the plate in responsibilities. My second oldest is looking forward to getting the youngest out of his crib in the morning. Lately I have been like chopped liver cuz all he wants is his brother in the morning. My second oldest will then sing our special "Good Morning Brother, Bless the Lord Jesus is King, Jesus is King . . . . . . He's Lord of everything". He has made it clear though that he doesn't want the diaper changing duty. I told him that is clearly alright.
I have been so confirmed in the training process of our boys. They are a delight to my heart. I do not regret any time that I have spent with them. I love each moment from our rock park tadpole adventures to digging for worms in the backyard. Yes my friends call me the Official Field Trip Mommy. I always have a fun place to go with them.
As for my youngest, the last few days he will say "I hold mommy". That is his way of hugging me so tightly around my lower head. It will be hard to reject those hugs in the next few weeks.
My oldest - he just wants to talk about everything. Tonight in bed he quoted Isaiah 41:10, "Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." He memorized that last year. I am so glad he has it hidden in his heart.
My last words will be from a Jars of Clay song:
God will Lift Up Your Head (a spin off of a traditional hymn translated by John Wesley)
Give to the wind your fear
Hope and be undismayed
God hears your sighs and counts your tears
God will lift up, God will lift up, lift up your head
God will Lift Up your Head
Leave to His sovereign sway
To choose and to command
Then shall we wandering on His way
Know how wise and how strong
How wise and how strong
God will lift up your head . . . . . . .lift up your head
Through waves and clouds and storms, He gently clears the way
Wait because in His time, so shall this night
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy, soon end in joy . . .
God will lift up your head.
Wow! literally. I am at a place of peace I truly have never experienced before. Thanks for taking this journey with me. I am humbled. Truly humbled. - Good night I will talk with you soon!
Don't forget to love on my Dave!