Yes, this morning I am weary! I have never been so worn out. Now I know the true meaning of weary. Whoa! Going home today brings mixed emotions / blessings to me. I look forward to lovin' on all my boys, including big daddy.
I've been asking the question, "Why me?". As you can read through the comments on this blog, I am the middle of 5 kids and a quite independent one. Never before had I contemplated "being still", that is not my temperment or personality.
As I reflect on the events of the past week, there are many things I am thankful for:
1. God, my Heavenly Father, who is taking care of all of the details.
2. My husband Dave, who has stayed by my side through the thick and thin of over 10 years of marriage, through the joys and sorrows, highs and lows, and my idiosyncracies (and you know I have a lot of them).
3. My family and friends, and their support to Dave & I during this trial.
4. Dear visitors who have been at a loss for words in the hospital (which is OK because I am having trouble processing my thoughts when people talk too fast).
5. The team of doctors caring for me - Dr. Forget, Dr. Sanders, Dr. White, and others.
6. The team of nurses that have cared for me - ICU nurses Amy & Laura, 3rd floor neuroscience nurses and staff Sue, Joanie, Phyllis, Marcie, Justin, Bob, Kelly, Victoria, and others.
7. My oldest child sitting in the hospital bed with me yesterday reading Scripture.
8. My middle child looking at me with his tender, concerned eyes and head drooped down (saying to my mind he needs a hug).
9. Emily & Grant crying with us and getting my "big boy" Dave his food.
10. Support from Wade & Ramona, including counseling support, and also for getting food for Dave.
11. Precious comments on the blog (we read each one) - please be sure to use your full name and city, state where you are from - my memory is good but not that good!
12. That I am weary but still have joy in my heart.
13. My dad coming in for a visit in the early hours of the morning with a newspaper - by the way, my dad has always been great about visiting people in the hospital with a newspaper - way to go dad!
14. That I was already working with a hemotologist (Dr. White) prior to the brain surgery - this has only been in the past month and it truly shows me that God was paving the way.
15. Ramona for bringing me cute "Hollywood" headbands - watch out CCS carpool moms, Kate is back on the minivan runway.
16. That I don't have to write a Christmas newsletter (yeah!) - that really takes a huge burden off.
17. THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANY MORE SHOTS OF BLOOD THINNERS IN MY STOMACH - THEY REALLY STUNG! (Never before in my life had I wished that I had extra layers down there)